Hello to all : ) It's been WAY TOO LONG!
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| Thu, 11-13-2003 - 9:39pm |
my apologies for not having posted on this wonderful & supportive board for so long (I think like 6 weeks). I abandoned you guys, I feel so bad, but I was going thru an extremely hard time, I had a mental & physical melt down...my body ached everywhere, I was so depressed and anxious I felt like I was in another world, I even gave myself an awful gash on my arm, something I had never done before. Well, I am doing MUCH BETTER now, I am happy to report : ) I am now in an IOP (Intensive Out Patient) treatment center for my ED (bulimia). And I am not working anymore (sooo great, my job was toxic to me!!!!! Good ridance!!!). So I am on Disability, just focusing now on healing myself. While I have suffered from an ED for about 3 yrs., this is my first treatment experience, and I also have group therapy weekly, which is SO AWESOME I thought I ws crazy..LOL, it was just so touching to meet other girls with ED's, it helped (as does this borad) me realize that I'm not alone, that there is hope, that things do get better....and that (contrary to my previous belief!!!), recovery is NOT about the doctors trying to "fatten me up for the slaughter!!!!" LOL : ) Anyway I have not cut myself since, I got on a higher dose of medication for my dep/anx, and I am bingeing/purging less (but still not gone.....had a HORRIBLE day yesterday.....threw up 4 times, didn't work out, then drank 4 drinks to 'self-medicate'...oh well, that was yesterday and I forgave myself and today has been a MUCH better day!!!! : ) OK, I will stop rambling on LOL!!! I hope that all is well with everyone, and I hope that one day we will all be free from ED's!!!!!
Love & Hugs,
~Janine~

Ally xxx