getting nervous and trigged, trigs
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getting nervous and trigged, trigs
| Mon, 11-17-2003 - 5:44pm |
Hubby and I leave for Nashville on Wednesday and I am really getting nervous. Especially after my eating binge on Saturday, I lost control. I know my sister'n'law will make sure I have a place to workout, but the eating out and eating socially is scaring me. I am so afraid that I will lose control. Today I ran across some pictures of me 50-60 pounds heavier and I just freaked. With my new exercise program not being as intense or lengthy, I am just worried I will go back to that. I know that in those pictures I was coming of bulimia in some and in others I wasn't exercising, but still. I work so hard to take and keep it off, I just don't know where to go sometimes. Hubby reassured me that I won't look like that and then he said the girl in those pictures was very pretty. I was pretty alright, pretty fat!! Then I go and eat and I can't stop even if it is healthy. Saturday I ate some forbiddens though and I am still beating myself up for it. Come to find out my sister'n'law is struggling the same way, she cried to me about it. Who knew that it kills her inside too. Her and I are really close so we can get each other through the holidays, I just wish she was with me on my trip to Nashville and Portland in a month. Anyway Love you all, gotta stop rambling!! Sharon

Hey, try to keep thinking positive. I know that's reeeeaally hard, but you just have to keep telling yourself that you will be ok. I was just reading in my bible study book this morning and Joyce Meyer wrote that what we think become our words and then our actions. So you just keep affirming over and over
Love & hugs, Kristina