My Story

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Registered: 04-22-2003
My Story
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Tue, 11-25-2003 - 12:39pm
I started a diet a little over three years ago and about 3 months ago started feeling really terrible. For about the first year I was intentionally trying to lose weight and stuck to it pretty good and ate healthily, since then I've gotten used to eating this way but never feel like I'm starving myself or anything and have always felt pretty good. But I've noticed every so often that I would lose a little more weight here and there, about every 6 months, which was fine until recently.

Now I've lost just a little too much and also feel terrible all the time. I think my problem is that I've probably depleted myself of important vitamins and minerals that we all need. I also don't want to lose any more weight but am having a hard time because I don't eat very much only because I'm not really hungry but I also know that I'm so scared of gaining weight. You see I had always been fairly thin and then all of a sudden I gained 30 pounds after I turned 45, I tried to lose it in every way possible for about a year and then found a way of eating that seemed to help me lose. So now I'm almost terrified of gaining an ounce which I know is terribly unhealthy thinking, but I feel that it will be so hard to lose it and enjoy being this thin. I don't look unhealthy or anything but If I lose any more I will. My family are concerned about me especially since I've been feeling terrible now for such a long time. I am also scared. Some days I almost think that I'm dying, honestly.

I feel tired all the time, totally depleted of energy. I work but have a very hard time getting up in the morning, luckily my job is sitting at a desk all day because I couldn't do anything else right now. Some days it's hard to do anything at all and I feel so lazy. When I get home I usually just lay on the couch watching television until I fall asleep. I have no ambition because I'm so tired. I'm not depressed or anything, so don't think that. Lukily my husband does the cooking but I do some housework, I do a little and then rest, then a little more and take a rest. And I don't want to go anywhere and this is hard because we used to lead a very social life. I also noticed that I get sick to my stomach in the morning if I drink coffee, so I've been eating oatmeal in the morning or around noon and dinner around 5 or 6 when I get home and maybe a light snack in the evening. I'm trying to eat more fruits than I had before and vegetables. I guess you could say that I almost feel like I have the flu at times and I'm shaky. One thing that really puzzles me is that my eyes really bother me terribly and are bloodshot almost all the time. Another thing is that for awhile now my urine has the strongest odor and that has never happened before, kind of like ammonia but I don't think I have any infections. Has anyone had any of these symptoms espcially the eye problem or the urine smell?

I am seeing a doctor and taking all the recommended vitamins and have been tested for all kinds of things just recently. I just had a liver and kidney ultrasound and also a mamogram and just about everything you can think of. I also had this blood test that is called Omega 3-it's suppose to tell us what I am depleted in and what types of diseases I might be prone too and I'm eagerly awaiting the results of this one in particular. I am just waiting to see my doctor next week to get the results but I think if there was anything serious he would call me.

I know I have always been a little too into losing weight but it has never gotten to this point and I know it's because I'm so small now and so happy with it, I've never looked better BUT I still think that life is not worth living just too look good, you've got to feel good and that's what I really want! To get back to feeling healthy and like my old self. So I don't think I have an eating disorder perse' BUT I know I've got some form of one or am on the verge which is very very scary.

So, if anyone can relate to any of the sicknesses I feel could you please let me know. I'd love to find out if any of you have experienced eye problems, urine problems, etc. So then maybe I can understand what is wrong with me. I just can't figure it out. I would think by taking vitamins and these are good vitamins and minerals, for a about 3 months now that I would be feeling at least a little better.

Thanks for listening!

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: trulyadiva
Tue, 11-25-2003 - 5:57pm

Hi - I am not sure what to tell you about the eyes, but the urin could be due to not getting enough water. Your urin should be a pale, pale yellow color and very 'thin' rather than dark yellow and 'thick'. Other than seeing a doctor, which you are already doing, I am not sure what to tell you. Maybe wait until you get this test back and see what it says. I know figuring out what's wrong can be frustrating and often doctor misdiagnose you (been there!), but just keep going at it. Do some research on the internet and see what you can find.


I am sorry I can't be of more help. I hope you will find some answers soon and will start to feel better.

Love & hugs, Kristina


Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 04-22-2003
In reply to: trulyadiva
Wed, 11-26-2003 - 9:34am
Thanks, actually I have been scouring the internet now for weeks but it just occured to me yesterday that it might be another medication my doctor put me on that is making me so tired. He told me to go off it for a few days and see what happens so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that is what it is. As far as the other stuff well I'll just keep searching for answers.