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| Thu, 11-27-2003 - 1:35pm |
My name is Emily, I am eighteen years old and a Freshman at college. I am 5'7 and weigh 103lbs. I justed started seeing a nutritionist and will see counselor in a few weeks. I started losing weight over the summer, in May I weighed 145-150. I never used to worry about what I ate, I was mad about what I weighed, but it did not weigh constantly in my mind like it does now. I am terrified of gaining a pound. My parents just stopped me from working out until I gain weight. It is hard knowing that I cant work the food I eat off, but I know I have to get better, I am hurting my family. But when I eat more I cant stay focused on my schoolwork. All I want is to be able to eat what I want and not worry. My biggest fear is gaining all the weight back and more. I just wnat to be able to enjoy all the good food at Christmas and not be miserable. Ever since I stopped working out my stomach has felt groce and all I feel is the food turing to fat inside me, I wish that would go away. If anyone has advice or any thoughts please reply. Thank you for listening!

Weight gain is always hard, even for someone without an ED but I want you to know, it is NOT impossible to free of this and feel yourself again. I want you to know I am here for you and you can email me anytime if you don't wanna post.
xxxoallyoxxx@aol.com
Lots of Love
Ally xxxxx
Hi - I am glad you found us. It sounds like you are going in the right direction. I don't know that I can give any advice other than seeing a therapist and you are going to do so. I also think it's great your parents know and are active trying to help, even tho the not working out may not feel so good right now. Just know that it gets easier and better after a while. Try to be patient with yourself and know that even in recovery we can have problems and that doesn't mean that you are failing, it just means you are trying to beat a tough disease and that's not easy.
Keep posting here, too, whenever you need to. It helps to get your feelings out, especially in writing, and you will get tons of support here. And here are some websites to check out for you:
www.somethingfishy.org
www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org
www.celebraterecovery.com
Love & hugs, Kristina