i got both,,,,,,,,,,,

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Registered: 09-16-2003
i got both,,,,,,,,,,,
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Mon, 12-01-2003 - 12:04pm
i was bulimic in the past, and i thought that i had gotten over it but this year i started up again. But now, im also showing signs of being anorexic too. i dont eat at all during the day, but when nite comes i binge on anything in sight and then purge in the shower, where no one can hear me. i have lost a total of 27 lbs in the past couple of weeks. everyone tells me i look good now, but im so ashamed at the way that i have gotten here. my bf urges me to eat, but i won't. he yells at me, but it has no effect. my mom is clueless and i want to keep it that way. i hate having two eating disorders, but i don't want to be fat either. no one wants a fat chick.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 12-01-2003 - 12:42pm

Hey lilmissgoth,


I am glad you found us and decided to post here. That's a start toward recovery and a move in the right direction. I understand you don't want your Mom to know, but it would be good to tell someone besides us here. It needs to be someone you trust and who you know is understanding.


It would also be beneficial to find a good therapist. EDs really don't go away by themselves and are not about your body or food. Just like alcoholics use alcohol to avoid their feelings, we use food and our bodies to do the same. Unless you figure out what your underlying issues are and deal with them emotionally, your ED will remain. It may seem like it's gone for periods of time, but eventually they come back.


Another option is finding some good groups to attend like Eating Disorders Anonymous (www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org), Overeaters Anonymous (www.overeatersanonymous.org), or Celebrate Recovery (www.celebebraterecovery.com - go to Global Locations on the left). All are great 12 step programs which are free.


I hope this helps.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 12-01-2003 - 6:02pm
I know how you are feeling!! I used to be bulimic, I got over that and then a couple of years later I slowly worked into anorexia and now I struggle with over exercising and food period. I have been in therapy for seven years and though it has seemed like a long time I am glad I have done it. I know it is hard, but talk to your mom. My family has been so supportive and so has my great husband. I am 31 and I have been struggling with ed since I was a senior in high school. I wish I could take away your pain and make it all better. My prayers and thoughts are with you and please keep posting for support!!

Sharon