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| Sun, 12-07-2003 - 12:50pm |
I now realise I have become an attention seeker, and I realise it's really pathetic, It is so childish, it's what a young child would do!
You are all right, I say I am not asking for attention, I thought maybe I was aking for help, but since hearing several views, your right. I have become of those annoying attention seekers.
I look at my posts, and I feel the emotion I feel when I wrote them, but I also see from a different view, your views. That all of them of sad and moaning, and asking for attention.
I apologise deeply to you all, and I do not want to miff you off anymore.
Please Kristina, I don't know if you will read this, but I was wondering if maybe you could delete my recent posts? I would much appreciate it.
I will only post nice things, good things, and not attention seek.
I am ashamed I have become a 'attention seeker' and I am sorry all. I must have made you all so brassed off with my moaning posts.
Your right, all of you are right.
Please do not reply to this, I just want you to read it, and hear my apology.
Please do not give me more attention, and post back.
I need help yes, I am getting help, but it is a slow process as you all know.
I will keep writing in my diary, and talking to my therapist once a week.
Thankyou for being honest with me guys, thankyou for being totally honest.
My posts shall be positive from now on, and I shall not moan, and if I do, please tell me I am moaning, and attention seeking, and will put a stop to it as soon as I can.
I have been so selfish, so so selfish, I just came here and moaned, I just moaned so much, I never thought of you guys, I never though of anyone else, you are all having a horrible long battle with your ED's too.
I just did not think of others, consumed in my own silly thoughts.
I'm so sorry all of you. Please forgive me. I have been so stupid and selfish, and I am so so so sorry. Of all my life I have never wanted to be a attenion seeker, but I realise I am one, I am a child asking to be played with. It's so pathetic, god I feel so pathetic.
I will shut up now, I will post next week or something, just pop on now and then and say hi to you all, I promise I will be positive, I will say good things, and if I have no good things to say, i will say nothing. I promise.
Please dont get miffed at me for this post, I am not attention seeking now, well I hope not..I really hope not.
I am Katie, and I will be strong, I will battle this on my own, and not do childish things.
I'm am sorry, please if you do spend some of your precious time on this post, by reading it, I say thankyou for reading it. I don't need a reply, I don't want or deserve a reply (Or any attention). Please just read and please I hope you can accept my apology.
I feel so stupid and childish, I am so damn sorry, all of you.
Please forgive me, I accept I am childish, I am an attention seeker and I am not proud.
I feel so ashamed of myself, so ashamed.
I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.
Stay strong all, have a good christmas, and a good new year.
I will be thinking of you.
I'm so sorry. Take care all.
Katie
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PLEASE DO NOT REPLY TO THIS, just accept my apology, and that i accept I am childish and foolish, I am a attention seeker.
I will try to get better on my own, I can do this, well I can try anyway.
Hang in there all. You are great people, your so special, you will beat this, you are good people.

Katie, the point of my reply, or anybody else's reply I am sure, was not to make you post positive posts only. All of us want and need attention. It's a basic human need and actually one of my top three emotional needs in my marriage. My husband knows this and therefore showers me with attention and I love it.
So please, don't stop posting, and don't just post something positive just so you can say you did, post what you are feeling. I would much rather hear you tell the truth than make something up. I am sorry if that was not clear from my last reply to you.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina