You know? Your right. Your all right.

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Registered: 05-03-2003
You know? Your right. Your all right.
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Sun, 12-07-2003 - 12:50pm
I used to hate hearing people asking for attention, doing stupid things, just to be seen, I told myself that I never want to be that pathetic, as to beg for attention, to be branded a attention seeker.

I now realise I have become an attention seeker, and I realise it's really pathetic, It is so childish, it's what a young child would do!

You are all right, I say I am not asking for attention, I thought maybe I was aking for help, but since hearing several views, your right. I have become of those annoying attention seekers.

I look at my posts, and I feel the emotion I feel when I wrote them, but I also see from a different view, your views. That all of them of sad and moaning, and asking for attention.

I apologise deeply to you all, and I do not want to miff you off anymore.

Please Kristina, I don't know if you will read this, but I was wondering if maybe you could delete my recent posts? I would much appreciate it.

I will only post nice things, good things, and not attention seek.

I am ashamed I have become a 'attention seeker' and I am sorry all. I must have made you all so brassed off with my moaning posts.

Your right, all of you are right.

Please do not reply to this, I just want you to read it, and hear my apology.

Please do not give me more attention, and post back.

I need help yes, I am getting help, but it is a slow process as you all know.

I will keep writing in my diary, and talking to my therapist once a week.

Thankyou for being honest with me guys, thankyou for being totally honest.

My posts shall be positive from now on, and I shall not moan, and if I do, please tell me I am moaning, and attention seeking, and will put a stop to it as soon as I can.

I have been so selfish, so so selfish, I just came here and moaned, I just moaned so much, I never thought of you guys, I never though of anyone else, you are all having a horrible long battle with your ED's too.

I just did not think of others, consumed in my own silly thoughts.

I'm so sorry all of you. Please forgive me. I have been so stupid and selfish, and I am so so so sorry. Of all my life I have never wanted to be a attenion seeker, but I realise I am one, I am a child asking to be played with. It's so pathetic, god I feel so pathetic.

I will shut up now, I will post next week or something, just pop on now and then and say hi to you all, I promise I will be positive, I will say good things, and if I have no good things to say, i will say nothing. I promise.


Please dont get miffed at me for this post, I am not attention seeking now, well I hope not..I really hope not.

I am Katie, and I will be strong, I will battle this on my own, and not do childish things.

I'm am sorry, please if you do spend some of your precious time on this post, by reading it, I say thankyou for reading it. I don't need a reply, I don't want or deserve a reply (Or any attention). Please just read and please I hope you can accept my apology.

I feel so stupid and childish, I am so damn sorry, all of you.

Please forgive me, I accept I am childish, I am an attention seeker and I am not proud.

I feel so ashamed of myself, so ashamed.

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

Stay strong all, have a good christmas, and a good new year.

I will be thinking of you.

I'm so sorry. Take care all.

Katie

x

PLEASE DO NOT REPLY TO THIS, just accept my apology, and that i accept I am childish and foolish, I am a attention seeker.

I will try to get better on my own, I can do this, well I can try anyway.

Hang in there all. You are great people, your so special, you will beat this, you are good people.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 12-07-2003 - 4:19pm

Katie, the point of my reply, or anybody else's reply I am sure, was not to make you post positive posts only. All of us want and need attention. It's a basic human need and actually one of my top three emotional needs in my marriage. My husband knows this and therefore showers me with attention and I love it.


So please, don't stop posting, and don't just post something positive just so you can say you did, post what you are feeling. I would much rather hear you tell the truth than make something up. I am sorry if that was not clear from my last reply to you.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina