In need of some support.. trigs..
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In need of some support.. trigs..
| Mon, 12-22-2003 - 4:02pm |
I know I dont post or even visit as frequent as I did in the past, but I am in need of some support and understanding.
I have gained so much weight that I am really freaking out about it and the doctor increased my thyroid meds b/c she knows that I have an ED and she also thinks that maybe I am being undertreated for my hypothyroidism, I have gained about 20 pounds and I HATE it so much, I cant stand for my DH to even touch me let alone my kids, I cant look at myself in the mirror or even in the shower if I do I totally freak out and start to cry. I have thought about suicide and I know that isnt the answer but cant keep those thoughts out of my head. I started to use DP's, and diuretics and laxatives agains and I am also restricting alot and when I do eat I feel so guilty for putting food into my body. My DH is at his wits end b/c I cant see what he sees, and I call myself names. I hate Eddy but yet I love Eddy, if only I can be happy with the way I look but I am so fearful that I will become extremely over weight, I have tried to lose in a healthy way and eat and exercise but havent lost a pound. I am so unhappy with myself and the ed voices just get stronger and stronger. Thanks for listening to me and thanks in advance for your support.
I have gained so much weight that I am really freaking out about it and the doctor increased my thyroid meds b/c she knows that I have an ED and she also thinks that maybe I am being undertreated for my hypothyroidism, I have gained about 20 pounds and I HATE it so much, I cant stand for my DH to even touch me let alone my kids, I cant look at myself in the mirror or even in the shower if I do I totally freak out and start to cry. I have thought about suicide and I know that isnt the answer but cant keep those thoughts out of my head. I started to use DP's, and diuretics and laxatives agains and I am also restricting alot and when I do eat I feel so guilty for putting food into my body. My DH is at his wits end b/c I cant see what he sees, and I call myself names. I hate Eddy but yet I love Eddy, if only I can be happy with the way I look but I am so fearful that I will become extremely over weight, I have tried to lose in a healthy way and eat and exercise but havent lost a pound. I am so unhappy with myself and the ed voices just get stronger and stronger. Thanks for listening to me and thanks in advance for your support.
Mary

HI Mary,
I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel better, but I know there isn't. I've been where you are right now and I know it doesn't feel good. But you have to keep fighting, especially the voices and thoughts telling you that you are fat. You need to keep saying the opposite, even if you don't believe it. Tell yourself, out loud or in your mind, that you ARE beautiful and that you have a beautiful body. Keep going to therapy and do what ever it takes to beat this ED. You can do this! Most of all, turn to God and give it to Him.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina