Scared...need prayers
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| Tue, 12-23-2003 - 4:09pm |
I have an abnormality on my right breast, my nipple to be exact (sorry if this is TMI). It resembles a rash and is concentrated on the nipple and a portion of my aereola. When I had my annual with my OB/GYN in July it was there, and he seemed concened, but not overly worried. Of course, I freaked out, and he said not to worry, that there was no cancer that would cause a red nipple and just to come back if it did not go away. I sort of put it in the back of my mind, and since then have entered into recovery and concentrated on it. Well, it has not gone away, although it has not gotten any worse either. I started researching on the internet, and there is a rare type of breast cancer called Paget's Carcinoma that will cause a red, eczema-type rash around the nippular area of the breast. I called the Dr. immediately and scheduled an appointment, but due to the holiday, I cannot be seen until Dec. 30th. I am terrified :( Although the article said that this was very rare and usually afflicted women in their late 50's and 60's, I can't help but feel scared. I am only 27 and just begun to live my life without my ED. I am totally and completely in love and have the most wonderful husband in the world and I am not ready to have to leave him.
I know that I need not focus or stress until I know for sure what it is, but that is easier said than done. My MIL is a nurse and said that it could be a number on things, and I know that, but I can't help but think of the worst. I am sooooo scared of what it may be. If anyone thinks about it, please keep me in your prayers that this will be alright, and if not, that I can beat whatever it may be. I truly believe that prayers have healing qualities and you can never have too many.
The good news is that I am still in recovery and have not binged or purged in over three months. Even under this stress I have not turned to my ED. I thank God that I have found the strength to cope with this in a healthy way. Lots of tears...
Thank you all for your prayers...I hope that everyone has a happy and healthy holiday.
--Jennifer

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Hi Jennifer,
I will definitely keep you in prayer and prayer DOES work wonders. As hard as this may be right now, keep affirming that you are healthy. Even if you don't believe it keep saying over and over 'I am healthy', or 'I believe God is healing me'. Negative thoughts produce negtive feelings and positive thoughts produce positive feelings, and you are right, you don't need to stress out over this.
Again, I know that's easy for me to say but you can make it until the 30th. God is with you ALL the time and if you turn to Him, He will comfort you. I believe you will have a wonderful life with your hubby, free of ED or any other illness or disease.
Keep us posted on how you are holding up!
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
Thank you for your kind words and prayers. You are wonderful at responding and trying to help others and I really do appreciate it. I am trying to think positive thoughts, especially so that I can enjoy the next few days with my family.
Merry Christmas!!
--Jennifer