not able to stop even though pregnant

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Registered: 01-21-2004
not able to stop even though pregnant
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Fri, 01-23-2004 - 5:17pm
i am 19 years old and have lost a loved one. i am pregnant again and struggle contestly with bulimia. i eat when i am forced to and then i throw it all up when no one is around and watching me. i dont know how to just stop it and dont think i can but it is hard for me at the time because i know there is an innocent life inside of me that needs me to be strong. i just cant seem to find this strength on my own. does anyone know how to help or have any advice. thanks for your time.

april
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Registered: 12-12-2003
Fri, 01-23-2004 - 5:29pm
April,

You are not alone!! There is a board under parents boards for pregnant with an ED. I post there frequently and just began to post here. I had buimia and anorexia and was not completly recovered until I became pregnant with my son. First and formost, you must think of your baby. Think about the outcome and what you want for your child. I had a healthy baby boy and that is because I took care of myself. Your baby doesnt deserve to starve because you think you need to throw up. You CAN stop and support is one of the best things to help you. Why dont you try something.. take it day by day and see how you do. When you feel the urge to purge, post something, or e mail someone.. do something to keep you from being able to purge. Have you spoken to your dr.? Maybe they could put you in contact with someone in your area who could help.. good luck, my thoughts are with you. I think you should check out the Pregnant wiht ED board, there are more people in your situation than you might think.

Sarah
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Registered: 01-13-2004
Mon, 01-26-2004 - 11:40am
April,

I dont know if this will help, but I read your post and just had to reply. You see, I was anorexic for five years, and I stopped ovulating. Now, I have been trying to get pregnant for three, but still have had no period. the docs have tried every medication, shot, etc, but nothing has worked. If I could change one thing, I would not have ruined my chance to do the only thing that I have ever really wanted, be a mom. Maybe you can think of me and how bad I want to get pregnant, and realize how lucky you are. Please take care of that baby because you are lucky to have concieved it. I so wish I could! Hope this helps in some way! Kristin
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Registered: 10-13-2003
Thu, 01-29-2004 - 4:52pm
Well, I promised myself I wouldn't say anything, but I feel that I have to. I wish people had been up front with me when I was actively in my anorexia, but they weren't and as a result, I stayed sick a lot longer than I would have. So, here goes. What you are choosing to do is harming an innocent life. There are no directions for how to stop- you just do. This is no longer about you- when it is, you can do whatever you choose to do to your body, but what you are doing is akin to child abuse. You are not feeding the child that is growing inside of you. Think about that- think about that every time you choose to starve, every time you choose to purge. It IS your choice, just as it was my choice to deal with life's problems and pressures by starving. Journal, call a friend, get into therapy, email, whatever you have to do to stop while you are pregnant (and hopefully for good). I do not mean any of this in a negative way, so please do not be hurt. What I say is the truth and you need to hear it- there is a precious life growing inside of you- one that many people would probably kill to have themselves. What would you do if you somehow harmed this life? How would you feel then? Think about that child every single time you feel the urge- put your hand on your belly and feel that baby growing inside of you. It is a gift- do not misuse it. Anjanette