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negative emotions is my trigger
| Fri, 02-27-2004 - 11:04pm |
I was bulimic at age 19. I am currently 24 and I feel it is going to come back very soon. Before in the past when I was angry and anxious, I was on a emotional rollercoaster. When ever I have these emotions I want to vomit. my emotions seem to trigger my bulimia instead of thinking I am fat or have low self esteem.

Hi Karmen,
You have a lot of awareness which is a HUGE step in the right direction. Often times people with EDs can't make a connection between their relapses and the emotions that triggered them. Have you considered seeing a therapist (if you are not already) and working on that issue? I used to do the same thing and now most of the time I don't even have the urge anymore to mess up, but when I do, it's simply a thought and it never goes anymore. I just don't have the desire to do those things anymore. It's possible to recover, you just need to work on it. But it sounds like you are in a pretty good place already.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
You're not alone! (MY ED was over 10 years ago...)For me I've also had some tendencies show up again recently...My trigger is feeling "out of control". For me it's not thinking I'm fat, I know I am currently a healthy weight (though I'm terrified of gaining) and it's not self esteem (most of the time I am proud of what I have overcome (ED) and I am HEALTHY and active and energetic now. (With an ED you have NO energy - I didn't at least!) I do have those occasional relapses once in awhile and it is because of stress and feeling loss of control over things around me... I just can't stand the GUILT I feel lying to my husband and him not realized how much I NEED to be in control of everything around me - like all the time! I also try to be so healthy now that the occasional relapses make me feel guilty about hurting my body! I'm trying to become closer to my religion and learn that it is okay to be imperfect...
K