New and scared

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Registered: 03-25-2004
New and scared
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Thu, 03-25-2004 - 1:49pm
I've been bulimic on and off for about 10 years. Lately, my urges are coming more often. Nobody knows that I have this problem. They think I have it all together. Great mom, great kids, clean house, decent figure, etc.... I don't know what my problem is and I'm frustrated. Every time I think it's under control and I start to feel good about myself - I find my self messing it all up again. I figured maybe if I did somehing different (joining this board) this time it would change things. Thanks for letting me vent.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: myloving4
Fri, 03-26-2004 - 6:06am

Hi,


I am glad you found us and hope you will find the support here that you are looking for. Have you thought about going to see a therapist? Typically with addictions, whether it's food, alcohol, drugs or something else, there is an underlying emotional component driving us to go back to our addiction time and time again. That's most likely why when you think everything is ok, you turn back to bulimia.


You may also want to check out www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org, www.overeatersanonymous.org (don't let the name scare you), and www.celebraterecovery.com (go to Global Locations on the left). Another good support site is www.somethingfishy.org.


You can vent here any time you need to. Sometimes it helps just to know that you are not alone in this. Support is very important and if there is someone you can confide in like a close friend or family member, that would be great, too.


Let me know what you think.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 03-25-2004
In reply to: myloving4
Fri, 03-26-2004 - 6:59pm
I am glad to have found a place to write down my feelings and know I won't be judged for them. I wouldn't be comfortable telling anyone I know about this and I can't go to a therapist. Today I had a good day and I think it's because I actually admitted I had a problem. Thank you.
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Registered: 06-04-2003
In reply to: myloving4
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 10:24pm
Eating disorders...are about control...Need to have it..feeling like we're losing it...Feelings of emotional insecurity about it all. Counseling, and lots of professional help is what is needed. Run don't walk, to the one closest to you. And for God's sake, stop trying to be SO perfect, and present the picture of everything being perfect. Hurry for profesional help, before you harm your health.