Why do I feel so down

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Registered: 04-01-2004
Why do I feel so down
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Thu, 04-01-2004 - 10:57pm
Hey Everyone Im new at this forum....

I havent been feeling so great about myself lately :( .... I think I lost the trust of an awesome friend of mine even though I really dont think I did or said anything wrong....Im extremely fat and dont know what to do anymore....I just cant stand looking at myself in the mirror....Im doing everything in my power to eat right and exercise at the gym everyday but its just not working....Im not obese but you know how anorexics/bulimics see themselves....I was even cutting to take away the pain but I saw that didnt help much so I stopped....I just want to be my normal self again and everyone always makes fun with how I look....Its sooooo fustrating! I just wish the stress and pain inside would stop....

and I really want my friend back .... but I just dont know what to think and I dont have to courage to call to see whats going on

love...

NOTBECONQUERED

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 04-02-2004 - 11:31am

Hi There!


Sorry I haven't replied sooner - it's been a busy week for me. I am glad you found us and are able to share what is going on with you. It's helpful to get your feelings out and especially to talk to others who can relate.


I am not surprised that you are feeling down right now. When things happen in life that are difficult for us to deal with, such as the situation with your friend, we tend to fee more negatively about ourselves. That's all part of dealing with an ED. But it won't be like this forever. Recovery is possible and it will get easier after time. Just don't give up.


Are you seeing a therapist? If not, I would highly recommend it. It is so helpful to be able to talk to someone who can help us figure out what's *really* going on because you know it's not about food or your body. That's just your way (our way) of dealing with life. As you begin to recover, you will learn to deal with life on life's terms. This morning I was really angry -long story- and I was talking out loud in the car and even cussing. It felt great to vent even tho nobody was listening. In the past I would have binged and purged or starved myself.


You may also want to check into some 12 step groups like www.overeatersanonymous.org, www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org, and www.celebraterecovery.com (go to global locations on the left). And post here as much as you can just to get things out in the open and be able to talk to people who understand and are going through similar situations.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 03-25-2004
Fri, 04-02-2004 - 6:34pm

Rayah,


I don't know what's going on between you and your friend... but hopefully things will simmer down and you guys will be able to talk again and work things out. Usually after people have a chance to think things through, that happens. I'll be wishing you luck.


I hope you get to feeling better soon. I know how you feel. I don't have any answers for you, just wanted to share my support for your situation.


All my best,


Rayah