Hi all!

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Registered: 02-16-2004
Hi all!
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Tue, 04-13-2004 - 2:45am
Hi, its been sometime since I last posted. Just thought I'd let you all know whats been going on. First off, I started taking diet pills again, then started getting sick from them, so I stopped. One of the RAs (I live in the college dorms) noticed and made an appointment for me to get help. Only when I went to the appointment I wasn't there to see a psycologist like I hoped for, rather I was seeing a dietician. It was way over my head and just overwhelmed me. She was talking about what kind of diet to put me on and all this, it was just too much for me that I wasn't ready for.

School is almost over for the semester! I'm so stressed out and looking forward to summer. I need a break from everything. I've started to be more open with people about my ED, carefully anyway. Last time I was open with my best friend about it, it was too much for him after awhile and we don't talk anymore. That hurts A LOT. he gave up on me. So, at times I feel totally alone in this "battle". But thats ok, because I think that I need to fight this on my own. And I know its going to be hard, and take time, but everyday I feel I get more strength to do whats healthy for me. I would really like to talk to someone over AIM...so if any of you want to me instant message buddies, it would be great to have a friend to talk to, someone that would understand!
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: aeva14
Tue, 04-13-2004 - 6:53am

Hi Aeva,


It is so good to hear from you and it sounds like you are making progress. The fact that you were hoping it would be a psychologist is a big step. Would you be able to start seeing a therapist either through school or your parents.


I also think it is good to confide in people, but like you already said, do it carefully. Some people simply don't understand, and others just don't want to deal with it because it's too hard for them to see their friends struggle. A good place to point people to is www. somethingfishy.org. Not only does it explain about EDs but it also has a section for loved ones of people with EDs. I AM truly sorry that you lost your friend (for now?) and I know that can be very painful.


I would be more than happy to IM with you and I am on MSN Messnger. My name on MSN Messenger is drummers_chick and I typically have it open even at work. I may not always be able to reply from work, but you can always try.


As for the diet - I would just forget abou it. Sometimes putting people with EDs on a strict plan just creates more problems. Just try to stick to healthy foods like protein, veggies, fruits, nuts and if at all possible, try to stay away from processed foods and sugar. But don't worry about doing it all at once. Try your best and if you don't eat healthy all the time don't beat yourself up. It's not easy, especially when you are going to school.


Hang in there - you can recover. Just keep holding on to that when it gets tough. I've been there, I know the pain, emotional and/or physical, and I've made it through. If I can then anybody can.


Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 03-25-2004
In reply to: aeva14
Fri, 04-16-2004 - 6:05pm

Hello... I'm sorry about your experience with that dietician. Im sure your RA had good intentions... too bad they didn't workout for you. I think I've discovered that people either understand ED or they don't... and there's not much for a gray area. I hope you're able to put that experience behind you.


I'm not on AIM or any instant messenger, but I wanted to say hello and let you know that I hope things continue to progress for you.