Where to get help

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Registered: 05-01-2004
Where to get help
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Mon, 05-03-2004 - 7:09am
Well this is my first post here. I am 43 yrs old and have been fighting this ed for 26 yrs on and off. My hubby knew when we got married i had it but was not bothered by it . Well lately for the last 5 months i have never been so low. He like the fact that i am small but he hides his head to how small i really am. I don't eat a thing and only drink just so many ozs of water. I take an huge amount of diet pills, water and filler pills just to functon during the day . I sleep only a few hours at night and can't focus on any one thing to long.

I got busted by a dear friend purging in the bathroom at school in the teachers lounge and she made a big deal out of it. She called my hubby and the doc and told the boss. Well his wife is a nurse so needless to say they all over reacted. All but my hubby he lets nothing bother him. Well i was told to get help or lose my job. I teach at a small Christian school and it is hard not to be watched by everyone and there brother to. I am very frustrated not ready to stop yet til i lost a few more pounds. I just don't know what to do. I love teaching i teach 11-12 grade health, 6th spelling and art k-12. I tried to tell my hubby how bad it is but i can see he is just worried about thr insurance not covering anything. So I guess i am asking is there anything out there to get me going and help me pay this myself. The way i see it is i got myself into this mess and i have to bear the burden alone.

My hubby is a good and kind man he is just stressed to the max. He does not say anything uaslly but we both hurt in our own ways. We lost our 2nd son at three yrs of age after a hard and long fight. We buried him at the age of three. This was 7 yrs ago and just two yrs ago his mom died and left us with his brothers kids.Of which are vey hard to deal with. I have been told my heart is screwing up and my kidneys are shutting down. I feel that if i let them go he will be able to collect my insurance and be able to pay off all the bills and still live comfortable . So can someone anyone help me i am drownding here ?
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 05-03-2004 - 9:47pm

Hi Jan - my heart goes out to you. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot and you don't have much support right now. Maybe the fact that you got caught is a good thing and a chance to start fresh. The first thing I would do is check for a therapist. See if your insurance will cover therapy and if not, many therapists will work with clients on a sliding fee scale. There are also counselors at churches that will provide counseling for a donation only if you can afford it.


The other option you have is looking into group therapy like www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org, www.overeatersanonymous.org, and www.celebraterecovery.com (go to Global Locations on the left). The latter has had great success in helping people with EDs. All of these programs have sponsors. Once you have chosen a sponsor to work with, that person will help you work the 12 steps and also be available to you to call and meet with when you need to talk.


You will also find great support on this board. Everybody here is really wonderful and most of us can probably relate to what you are going through.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina