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| Wed, 05-05-2004 - 6:03pm |
Well here I am I might sound stupid. I want help but i make no big deal out of my ed when my hubby is around. I laugh and tell him if i die you can pay off a bunch of bills . An then you will not have anyone to run them back up. He laughs with me, but i really want him to know the seriousness of what is going on. I have tried but can't tell him . I went to a ed clinic and he just keeps talking about the bill how much it cost and insurance is not paying for any of it. At this point i feel like i did this to myself so i should be the one to suffer with it. I am confused i don't know what to do. I am scared to tell him how bad this is, but am afraid if i don't i will die with it.
If i get help though i feel it will do no good because i will come home to the same hell i am in now. See we took his brothers kids both girls. Well the oldest one is doing better. But the younger one treats me like crap. She gets mad at anything i ask or say. I have never hated children . But hate this one she is a slob and could care less what anyone says to her. I don't know how much more i can take from her. Part of me just want my life to be over. But i also have a son who i love so much and he is such a good boy. I have lost one son and also want to go and be with him. I am confused and lost in my ed and don't know what is going to happen next. Please anyone if there is an answer please advise me before it is to late.
If i get help though i feel it will do no good because i will come home to the same hell i am in now. See we took his brothers kids both girls. Well the oldest one is doing better. But the younger one treats me like crap. She gets mad at anything i ask or say. I have never hated children . But hate this one she is a slob and could care less what anyone says to her. I don't know how much more i can take from her. Part of me just want my life to be over. But i also have a son who i love so much and he is such a good boy. I have lost one son and also want to go and be with him. I am confused and lost in my ed and don't know what is going to happen next. Please anyone if there is an answer please advise me before it is to late.
janet

Hi Janet,
I know this is hard and I can empathize with you. Making it sound less serious than it actually is sounds all to familiar. I don't know any other way to tell your husband than to sit down with him, take time alone, and tell him exactly HOW serious this is. If you are afraid that your life is in danger at this point, then tell him that.
I also made some recommendations as far as therapy, group meetings, etc. in my reply to your initial post. Have you given those options any thought?
I did just read through your initial post again and there is one thing that stood out to me. You said you got yourself into this so you need to bear the burden by yourself. I very much disagree with that. You need and deserve all the support you can get. I hope that you will find the courage to tell your husband the whole truth, and that he would help you in your quest to recover.
Please keep us posted on how you are doing, what steps you have decided to take, and how you are dealing with things.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina