Vanity/pride?-trig? not sure
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Vanity/pride?-trig? not sure
| Sun, 05-16-2004 - 4:21pm |
hi ppl!
as u may or may not no by my last post on the last discussion i started (i dont blame u 4 not readin it...i can go on 4 a really really long time-my thoughts just all come tumbling out..!) anyway, i think the reason i have this ed is coz i dont want anyone to have any reason to look down their noses at me...the question is, what am i supposed to do to change that, and do i want 2? maybe i should just try 2 force myself to eat wen im hungry and do some excercise...i really dont think that would work 4 me tho...
i hav phoned a hotline and basically, there r no counsellors near my school/home so i coodnt go regularly without telling my parents...which i just cant do...i just cant...u prob no what i mean...
thing is, i dont think i see what isnt there wen i look in the mirror, so i think if i ever get to say size 10 or 8, i think i would see what was there ie not a fat person, and be able to get back to normal (slowly but surely i think i could do it as i wouldnt hav a reason to carry on the way im goin..) so, i think the only option i really have is to carry on...i cant not...i cant eat normally just now...and i cant get to a cousellors regularly, so i think im just goin to have to see if my prediction for the possible future is tru ie am i able to go back to 'normal'? i think it will be a challenge, and i love challenges...i hate to fail...maybe it will work...
any advice? i think this is basically vanity that i dont want ppl to look down their noses at me, and will go to these lengths to do it? what do u think...i didnt think i woz a vain person...maybe its just pride...
???????????????
rather confused and running out of real options
any advice? please?
lauren x x x x x
as u may or may not no by my last post on the last discussion i started (i dont blame u 4 not readin it...i can go on 4 a really really long time-my thoughts just all come tumbling out..!) anyway, i think the reason i have this ed is coz i dont want anyone to have any reason to look down their noses at me...the question is, what am i supposed to do to change that, and do i want 2? maybe i should just try 2 force myself to eat wen im hungry and do some excercise...i really dont think that would work 4 me tho...
i hav phoned a hotline and basically, there r no counsellors near my school/home so i coodnt go regularly without telling my parents...which i just cant do...i just cant...u prob no what i mean...
thing is, i dont think i see what isnt there wen i look in the mirror, so i think if i ever get to say size 10 or 8, i think i would see what was there ie not a fat person, and be able to get back to normal (slowly but surely i think i could do it as i wouldnt hav a reason to carry on the way im goin..) so, i think the only option i really have is to carry on...i cant not...i cant eat normally just now...and i cant get to a cousellors regularly, so i think im just goin to have to see if my prediction for the possible future is tru ie am i able to go back to 'normal'? i think it will be a challenge, and i love challenges...i hate to fail...maybe it will work...
any advice? i think this is basically vanity that i dont want ppl to look down their noses at me, and will go to these lengths to do it? what do u think...i didnt think i woz a vain person...maybe its just pride...
???????????????
rather confused and running out of real options
any advice? please?
lauren x x x x x

Hi Lauren,
Both pride and vanity can definitely have something to do with your ED (pride is an issue for me) and I am glad you had some break throughs. I did see your other post but haven't had time to respond.
If you can't go to therapy right now, there are other options until you are ready to do so. You can go to www.somethingfishy.org and look at their resource list. Read a book on EDs and how to overcome them. If you have questions or want to discuss any of what you read, you can do so here if you don't have a friend or family member to do it with.
You can also attend group meetings like www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org, www.overeatersanonymous.org (more likely to be in your area and also for ppl with anorexia and bulimis - don't let the name scare you), or www.celebraterecovery.com (go to Global Locations on left). There you can share what's going on or you can just sit and listen to others share. Some are book studies, some are strict discussion groups. Either way it will help to be among people who share the same addiction. You can also get a sponsor in these programs which would be really, really beneficial for you. I am concerned because you have nobody to talk to in person about this. And if none of those groups work for you then you can get a sponsor online at www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org or you can do a search for online ED sponsors.
I hope this helps. The key in all this is that you have to take action. Nobody can work recovery for you and eventually, when you are ready, that includes telling your family and close friends. You need support - more than we can give you here online.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
thanx for replying
lauren x x x
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina