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Registered: 06-23-2004
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Wed, 06-23-2004 - 5:05pm
Hi everyone, my name is Meg, and I'm new here, so I figured I'd introduce myself. I used to frequent the ED and SM boards on aol, but they moved them and I couldn't find them, and anyway, I dont have aol anymore. I've been struggling with an eating disorder for about 6 years, with no end in sight. I've been struggling with self-mutilation for about that long as well. so if anyone wants to talk my SN is TelepathPsiCorps. I look forward so sharing support with all you guys, you seem like a good group.

Meg

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Registered: 05-01-2003
In reply to: troubledteep
Wed, 06-23-2004 - 5:43pm
Hi Meg,

Welcome; I'm glad you're here. This is kind of an off-and-on quiet board, so we can use more members. Not that any of us like to see more people with eating disorders.

I'm curious about this "no end in sight" business. Why do you feel that way? If you feel comfortable talking about it, what is holding you back from recovery? In another post you said you sometimes wonder when your "turn" to recover will come. Remember, recovery isn't something that happens to us, it's something we create. Everyone goes as slowly or as quickly as they are willing and able. I know that there are factors in ED's that we don't choose, but I think there is also a lot that we do control and can choose.

Anyway, I have to run right now, but it was nice to meet you. Hope to see you around!

:) Starfish

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Registered: 06-23-2004
In reply to: troubledteep
Wed, 06-23-2004 - 6:12pm
thanks for the welcome.

It's just I've been in therapy for so long, and sometimes it gets better, but it always gets worse again. Like my weight is "fine" (too high) now, but I want to lose weight really badly and I've been purging at least every day lately. If I'm not purging than I'm cutting myself, or burning myself, or starving myself, or drinking too much.. It's always something. I dont think that there's been a time since 7th grade that I wasnt doing something self destructive, and I'm completly addicted. I've been hospitalized 6 times for various things, but it's never helped. Renfrew did the most damage of anything, I came out of that place 10 times worse than I went in. It just seems like there's no way for me to ever really recover.

Meg