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Mon, 06-28-2004 - 12:41am
Hello everyone. I have been directed to this board because I need the help. I have been talking on the self-esteem board and they said that I should also visit this site. I have read a few posts already and can't wait to get to know you all.

I am 5'1" and weigh 84lbs. I am addicted to laxatives and also take waterpills, fat burners and energy pills on a regular basis. I used to weigh 135 lbs. and knew I was overweight, but content with my body. My family told me I needed to tone up(even though I have always been by far the smallest person in the family!), so I started dieting and exercising. I felt that nothing was changing so I decided to use laxitives and all the other pills soon followed. I then began to make myself sick. I would only allow myself to do it a few times a week. I obviously became obsessed with weight and began to not eat. If I did, it was very very little. I became vegetarian and exercised alot so that my family thought I was just losing weight healthily. It went to the extremity that if there was going to be food somewhere I would go late and say I ate earlier or just not go at all.

This weekend, the family confronted me and I have started to realise I have a problem. I don't think it is all that extreme, but I know I shouldn't be taking so many pills. I have agreed to go to counciling, although I don't think it is needed. I am going away to college (out of the country) and my mom is freaking out that I am going to kill myself if I don't get help before my departure. As I reread this post, I know it sounds bad-but I don't think it is that huge of an issue. I have stopped vomiting almost completely, cut down on the pills on my own. Can't I just do it myself?! Does anyone agree with me?

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: sunshine2735
Tue, 06-29-2004 - 12:54am

Hi Sunshine,


I actually replied to this post earlier this morning but I must have done something wrong because obviously it's not here.


Anyway, I actually agree with your Mom/family that you should do something about your problem. It may not seem that bad right now, but EDs have a way of creeping up on you and before you know it that's your way of life. The sooner you can start with therapy the better off you will be in the long run. Going to college outside of the country is exciting, but it can also be stressful and during times of elevated stress we tend to rely on our eating disorders. Why not go to counseling now, get some help on what's going on emotionally, and avoid problems down the road? You certainly can't do any harm by seeing a therapist and discussing what's going.


Please let us know what you decide and how things go.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina