*Scared*

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Registered: 05-31-2004
*Scared*
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Wed, 06-30-2004 - 1:55am
I have done it. I set an appointment to talk to someone about my ED. I am so scared though. I don't know if I can go through with it. I don't know if I really can tell someone about everything like this. I have no idea what to expect. Any thoughts, suggestions, information would be greatly appreciated!

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Registered: 12-24-2003
In reply to: sunshine2735
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 4:23am
Hi Sunshine,

I can completely understand how you feel. I had my very first appointment at an eating disorders clinic last Wednesday, and I was petrified!!

I'm not sure how things will exactly work out for you, but the clinic I go to has a doctor, a social worker/psychotherapist, and a dietician. Last Wednesday, I saw the doctor and social worker together, and they basically asked me a heap of questions about my history. It was more like information gathering. They understood that I felt uncomfortable, and were very patient. I'm sure that most people working in the field are sensitive to these issues, so it's okay to feel afraid.

When I had my appointment today, I first saw the doctor, then the social worker. The doctor was just asking questions about my medical history. Then she checked my weight on two different scales, then my height. When I saw the social worker, it was more of a continuation from last week. She also gave me three forms to fill in over the next week. I have to record everything that I eat, and also record if I binge or purge. She said that she isn't going to get me to begin changing my behaviours at the moment. First she wants to look at how things are now. I'm really worried about this, because I feel it will trigger my ED even more.

So that's my journey so far. It is a VERY brave thing you're doing, so I hope you can be gentle with yourself. Hang in there, and let us know how you go, okay?

Lots of love and good luck vibes,

Mel

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: sunshine2735
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 6:44am

Hi Sunshine,


The thing to keep in mind is that this is YOUR appointment. You can talk as much or as little as you want to. Nobody can or will force you to talk about things you are not ready to talk about. Just take a deep breath and keep that in mind. This is a big step and it can be hard, but once you are there, I bet you will feel relieved and then subsequent appointments will be a breeze.


I will be praying for you today. Please check in and let us know how it went.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 10-08-2003
In reply to: sunshine2735
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 8:19am
hi

WELL DONE!!! i havent read the other replies, but i would suggest you just be yourself and see how it goes...hopefully you will be able to this person more than once, so if you havent finished talking by the end, you can go bak and see him/her again and finish letting all those feelings out

im so glad for u...good luck

lauren x x x x x x x x x x

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Registered: 04-14-2004
In reply to: sunshine2735
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 10:50am
hi sunshine, me too! my first appointment is today, and i don't know what to expect. all i'm trying to do is make it there, and once i do i'm sure everything will be fine. i keep thinking "I need this" and i truly do. they aren't going to hurt us, they're going to help us...this is just the first step. good luck, let me know what happens, and i'll do the same!
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Registered: 06-23-2004
In reply to: sunshine2735
Wed, 06-30-2004 - 6:37pm
What eating disorders place did you go to? I was in Renfrew and it was a nightmare.. the rules were more eating disordered than I was!

Meg