newbie with question

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Registered: 11-18-2003
newbie with question
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Wed, 06-30-2004 - 11:46am
I think that I posted here a long time ago but am not too sure...

I post to another board here at ivillage so I am pretty familiar with the contents of what to say and not to say..

I see a therapist for bipolar disorder and well other issues as well about a year ago I was hospitolized for a bad bout of depression and well they let me leave the phyc ward but wanted me to go to the eating disorder ward I siad no that I did nto have a problem and left...

My therapist tells me that I do have some form of an eating disorder, I used to use laxatives water pills I still take water pills but only when I am about to get my period I get painfully bloated literally, I used to work out two hours a day everyday I would only eat a small and I mean small bag of pretzels a day just one bag nothing more than that and if I ate more than that I felt like crap, I used to vomit and then go two to three days with no food as my punishment for eating more than my pretzels..I also took diet pills some with ephdra in them some with out plus caffine pills you name it I did it, I am thin I know I am thin my clothes fall off of me but I also gained weight I was around 90 pounds this time last year and now about 105 what did it for me is when my therapist asked how my son should be told when I die from wha tI was doing to myself I stoppepd most of it but not all I am back on the diet pills..

I aksed my therapist what kind of eating disorder she thinks I have I am not anorexic nor bulimic I look healthy nothing like I did a year ago I do not binge eat nor do I vomit, I eat when I am hungry but I still think I am a whale when in reality I am the smallest of my friends the heaviest friend I have is 110 pounds and I am much smaller than her but it doesnt change how I see myself...

I know I am babbling on and not making sense but then again I am trying tomake sense of what is going on with me.

Sorry for the abrupt intro to you all.

Thanks in advance for any info you can give me.

Erin

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Thu, 07-01-2004 - 11:58am
I posted this the other day

I have a ton of questions for the people here on this board regarding ED"s

and would appreciate any info that anyone would like to share..

Thanks

Erin
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Registered: 06-23-2004
Thu, 07-01-2004 - 12:29pm
what kind of information are you looking for? If you want to talk, my AIM name is TelepathPsicorps.

Meg

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 07-02-2004 - 11:55am

Hi Erin,


welcome to the board.


Sorry I am just now replying.


Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Fri, 07-02-2004 - 1:27pm
Thank you Kristina,

I appreciate the information that you gave me....

I fall on and off with the whole thing with eating and not eating...

I was thinking about joining some kind of group thing in my area but thought they woulod not have me I guess because I dont have one or the other and in relativly healthy looking but I guess I am in denial most of the time...

I definatly have body image issues they are not rational views of my body and food is a scary thing for me

Thanks again for the info

Erin