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The Appt.
| Wed, 06-30-2004 - 11:22pm |
I am so mad at myself! I called and cancelled my appt. today and hour before I was supposed to be there. It dawned on me if I went to this appt. I would be missing my pilates class. How rediculous! I went to class and cried afterwards wondering why I am letting this control my life?! I went to my best friend and she is going to go with me the next time so I DO go and help myself. I am going to reschedule tomorrow. I am so disappointed with myself! Sorry to disappoint you all too!

Hi Sunshine,
You did not disappoint us and try not to be disappointed in yourself either. In the beginning of my recovery I would have most likely done the same thing and I still try to make time for my workouts. It's hard to let go of old habits and get to the point where ED does not overrule and control everything else we do. This will change over time, but don't expect it to happen immediately.
The good thing is that you are willing to go and that you already asked a friend to go with you next time. What a great idea. You are doing great - try not to be so hard on yourself and look at the fact that you ARE going to reschedule. Focus on the positive as much as you can (and I know that's hard and also takes time).
Love & hugs, Kristina
it's hard to actually go. i cried all the way to mine yesterday afternoon! but once i was there, i was fine...still crying, but so glad i made it. keep trying, you'll make it. just don't be disappointed, you'll get there.