New to the board..not to Anorexia..

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Registered: 07-04-2004
New to the board..not to Anorexia..
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Sun, 07-04-2004 - 9:49pm
Hey everyone..

I am a "recovered" anorexic, or so I am categorized by most who know me and knew me during high school. Four years ago I became eating-disorded, suffering first from bulimia and then becoming mostly anorexic. I went into treatment, and it became less and less of a presence in my life as I got a boyfriend, changed schools, etc. Well- about a year ago, I began binging and purging almost every 5 days ( I kept track) and was becoming more depressed. I returned to therapy, and the binging wore off but I started leaning more towards anorexia again. Now I realize that I have been falling deeper into my eating disorder although I know I am very thin and am not trying to lose weight. I am using food as the control in my life (sound like a textbook to you?) and I basically stay within the 1,200 calorie range ( I also walk 6 miles a day) and eat the same things everyday, at the same times..except for dinner which varies a lot. I am going off to college in the fall and am scared that I will be too afraid to eat the food there. Has anyone been in a similar situation and can give me some advice? I am really, really frightened that I'll just stop eating.. I've already lost my period and keep trying to tell myself, my family and my doctors that I am eating enough.. but I know I can't possibly be healthy. Sorry this post is so long I just needed some outside advice not from my parents or therapist...and I know you have all struggled. Thanks again.

Marissa

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Registered: 06-29-2004
Mon, 07-05-2004 - 3:47pm
Hi marissa welcome to the board. I know how you feel my advice to you is to stay focus on a meal plan. Not so much the disorder it can be scary that you may not eat. Meal plan is the way to go. Good luck