back again, *trigg-crappy ED emotions*

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Registered: 10-23-2003
back again, *trigg-crappy ED emotions*
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Sun, 07-11-2004 - 4:01am
Hi everyone, Jade here, i recognise a few of you...i used to come to this board when i was 16 or 17, i'm 20 now and so much has changed for the better but the older i get the more i am scared that this ED isn't going away, i swing between anorexia, bulimia and overeating, it's horrible all of the time i hate it, i feel like i can't shake it off and i've reached a weight which isn't overweight but i am not happy at all, i am terrified that i willkeep gaining yet i don't have the self-discipline or drive to screw myself up with anorexia and i DONT want to, but i need to do something, i am so scared, i feel like i have to make a decision, i don't even know how to eat normally-i haven't since i was 13, food is my best friend and enemy. I guess what i really wanted to ask you guys is if you think it is o.k to go and see a therapist about my eating problems or a dietician, even though i am not underweight? i mean i feel like i am not going to put myself through starvation etc, but i easily could, maybe i wouldn't be taken seriously unless i was underwwight nor actively anorexic, it's just the thoughts never go away you know? i might as well be skinny.

Well love to all, by the way life is good for me otherwise it's just lately i have started thinking like this again, but anorexia tells me my life will be better...i hate it.

jade
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Registered: 10-08-2003
Sun, 07-11-2004 - 5:17am
hi

i think it is definitely ok to go and see a therapist; u obviously have an ed, the fact that it keeps changing (like mine) does not mean u dont have it and therapists dont diagnose u, they listen 2 ur problems, ur thoughts and try and work through them (as far as i know anyway). it definitely sounds like u need 2 talk 2 sum1, (as do i, hence the screen name) so go and c a therapist, try 2 work through the problems...they wont turn u away, especially not just because you dont look like u r at deaths door from lack of food...

u seem 2 want 2 work through these problems, which is a great first step...i would say go 2 a therapist, pour ur heart out to him/her...it might just help!

good luck, let us know how its going if u can...

lauren x x x x x

p.s. u sound just like me...but a few yrs older...i have faith, u can do this!
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 07-11-2004 - 10:25am

Hi Jade,


I remember you and I can't believe it has been that long since you posted here. I am glad things are going ok aside from the ED.


You DO NOT have to underweight to go see a therapist. In all my ED years and the many weight fluctuations I went through, I never reached that really skinny anorexic look or was 'clinically' underweight. That didn't stop me from getting therapy nor did anybody ever say anything about it. If they had, i would have gone to see someone else.


And I can relate to what you are going through. Therapy will help you with that and things will get easier after a while. Keep checking in if you can and let us know what you decide.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 07-14-2003
Wed, 07-14-2004 - 4:23pm
People see therapist all the time for all sorts of emotions/disorders/general feelings. My sis-in-law goes to a therapist about once every 2 just to have someone to talk to that is unbiased. She does have a bit of SADD, but aside from that... she is a great, down to earth, normal person.

I think you would be dumb NOT to go to a therapist... they aren't there to judge... they are there to help. And just b/c you aren't underweight doesn't mean you don't have a problem. According to a height/weight chart I am not underweight... but for my body I am. I stopped getting my period and I had my body fat tested nad it was 11%... so I know i am too skinny... but guess what, I am 5' 2.5" and weight 110... that's "normal" according to the BMI and weight/height charts.