I can't take this anymore!!(Trig)

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Registered: 06-05-2004
I can't take this anymore!!(Trig)
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Fri, 07-16-2004 - 12:15pm
AHH!! I am so mad, all my mom is doing today is complaining about everything, how her life is so stressful, how she's always busy, how I can't do anything right, how I am alwasy sitting around doing nothing!! UGH!! I HATE THIS!! I try so hard to please everyone and its not working!! I'm never even home, I'm allllways doing something, wether it's work, or school or exercising,or cheerleading, gosh its soo annoying!! All this does is STRESS me out!! And of course when that happends I dont want to eat! Oh, and my mom keeps saying how she never even has time to eat, and I dont know why but that is driving me nuts!! AHH!! I cant deal with all of this!! I wish I was going to college next year it would make everything much better, but i'm not, im still in HS and I know that next year everything is going to get 10x worse!! I have like 3 AP classes, I'm captain of cheerleading(which means STRESS!!) I'll probably still be working for awhile, and then I also have friends and A bf, and college to get into!! UGH! I'm sorry im just going on and on...but I just cant deal with this and im so confused I dont know what to do!! I could never let my mom find out b/c she would flip out and of course that would just make her life harder!! And im not 18 so its not like i can just go get help myself. (By the way this summer is really the first time ive had a serious problem with my ED, if its even considerd that)PLease help me!! I would love someone to talk with!!
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Registered: 04-24-2003
Fri, 07-16-2004 - 10:51pm
Hi honey... take a few deep breaths... that's better. You have to really try and priorize your commitments and your commitment to taking care of yourself should be top of the list. Try to write lists what what needs to be done NOW, what can wait and if you have to "schedule" in meals, then do so. It is a trigger, I am sure, when your mother says she didn't have time to eat. I am not sure what you mean by questioning whether you have an ed or not. What's going on that makes you feel this way? Being a mother myself, I can understand how things can become overwhelming... and then she still sees you as a child so she can't comprehend that you are feeling overwhelmed as well. I don't know what your relationship is normally like, but maybe she is just in a mood and you could talk to her about how you are feeling when she would be more receptive. Ultimately, you have to please yourself, so try to focus on that. Good wishes sent to you.