Bulimia free for 1yr&1/2...until today
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Bulimia free for 1yr&1/2...until today
| Mon, 07-19-2004 - 8:34pm |
Hi,
I'm new to these boards. I'm SO angry at myself. I was bulimic for 10 years and quit cold turkey a year and a half ago. It was the hardest thing I ever ever did, but I did it, and until today was overwhelminly proud of my accomplishment.
I don't understand what happened. I don't exactly know why I did it except that I felt guilty for eating so bad lately. I feel like I've gained lots of weight. I'm a runner (marathons) and my running regumines have hit a plateau, and I feel like I'm getting more out of shape than in.
I'm new to these boards. I'm SO angry at myself. I was bulimic for 10 years and quit cold turkey a year and a half ago. It was the hardest thing I ever ever did, but I did it, and until today was overwhelminly proud of my accomplishment.
I don't understand what happened. I don't exactly know why I did it except that I felt guilty for eating so bad lately. I feel like I've gained lots of weight. I'm a runner (marathons) and my running regumines have hit a plateau, and I feel like I'm getting more out of shape than in.
Right now I just feel really, really guilty. I've done SO GOOD for so long, and I feel like I just committed this huge huge sin and I don't know how to forgive mysefl. It's not like the rest of my life is bad. I have a lovely boyfriend, an ok job - great family.
Has anyone had a breakdown after such a long time? How did you cope? did you forgive yourself?
Will this screw up my digestion? Make me regress more?
uggggh, I'm SO MAD.

Adam was awesome at first, then the mental abuse started... which is when the bulimia started. I kicked him to the curb... unfortunately I can not say the same for bulimia... that has stuck around. I am in therapy for it now, but have not been doing so great. I am seeing a Dr. next week to discuss my options as far as AD go...b/c i am doing horrible
Hi,
Before I
Love & hugs, Kristina
In the last 5 years of my recovery, I definitely had a few slips here and there. But I started to realize that the release and the whole binge and everything weren't even good anymore. My mind never really goes there at all anymore. Although, sometimes I do get down on my body and that's my red flag now.
Good luck and ((((((((((hugs))))))))) to you!