ive reached rock bottom

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Registered: 07-23-2004
ive reached rock bottom
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Fri, 07-23-2004 - 12:53am
well they always say that writing is therapeutic and im new to this message board thing and id really appreciate some advice. Ive been bulimic for about a year now, ive just graduated high school. last year i was depressed and started gaining weight and i guess it was my only release. Binging. and then feeling fat and purging. My wieght has been yo-yoing for the past year and now ive started gaining again. But still, i eat all this junk food and then purge or i'll restrict my calories for days and then have no energy. I just seem to have no will power to stop. I dont know whats wrong with me. All i do is sleep during the day and then binge and purge. i just dont feel like going out or doing anything social. I just stay at home. When i lose weight i feel good and healthy and i love going out, but at the moment im stuck in this cycle. Can someone tell me something besides to go see a doctor?
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 07-23-2004 - 6:55am

Hi Anastasia,


It sounds like you might be going through some depression and using your ED to cope with life. I know you don't want to hear to go see a doctor, but that is the best thing you can do if you want to stop the crazy cycle you are in right now. This is not about will power and will power will not help you to beat this. It may work periodically, but eventually you will give in to your behaviour again. You need to work on the emotional side of it and the best way I have found to do so is through counseling.


Coming here, writing about what's going on, and getting support are all great and will help, but those alone will not help you to recover. Please consider finding a good therapist who can help you go through this. You really shouldn't be doing this on your own. You should also tell a close friend or your family if you can - as long as you think they will support you.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 04-16-2003
Fri, 07-23-2004 - 2:09pm
Hi hon,

Kristina's right, so I agree with what she wrote.

I am 36 and have been dealing with anorexia on and off since I was 12.... the past couple years it has done some damage to my body. I have been seeing a cardiologist because my heart keeps freaking out from my electrolytes being low.

Please take care of yourself, see a doc for a check-up and talk to a therapist.... see if you can find a group meeting in your area regarding ED's. Eating Disorders Anonymous is located throughout the country....

Hugs, Michelle


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