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PLEASE HELP!!
| Mon, 07-26-2004 - 12:35am |
I dont know what to do, one of my friends just died today, we thought she was getting better, but then it took a turn for the worse, she was only 18!!! She was the most amazing person you could ever meet, and she did not deserve to die!! She was in an accident on a lake about a week ago, and was on life support in the hospital. I feel sooo bad!! I dont want to have fun or anything b/c i feel like it's not fair to her. I also can eat, it just makes me feel sick. I wasnt really that close to her, althought we talked and were friends, it seems like most of the other friends, even ones who were much closer to her are doing better. I just feel like i want to do is cry all the time. It also doesnt help that my bf and I got in a fight today, This all just sucks sooo bad!! Anyways, the thing is, I have a feeling I'm going to go back into my "ED" patterns, I was doing really good for about a week, but not now. I feel so selfish!! Everone else is handling it much better than I am, and it's not that I want attention or anything!! But I just feel like I'm feeling sorry for myself or somthing, and its not fair I should be thinking of my friend and her family!! PLease help!! am I over-reacting!??

Hi Caitlin,
I am so sorry for your loss. It sounds truly devastating and I would be sad as well. Everybody has a different way of dealing with the loss of someone and for us with EDs, we tend to turn to our typical behaviours. Try not to feel guilty or selfish about it, but do try to find a different way of dealing with all the emotions you have coming up. Is there anybody you can talk to about how you are feeling? Do you have a therapist you can discuss this with? You shouldn't be going through this by yourself.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
Sorry, I remember now. Just give it some thought and don't rule out seeing a therapist entirely. My weight is normal yet I go see a therapist. I also don't purge anymore, nor do I starve myself or purge anymore, that doesn't mean my ED is completely gone and I don't need or deserve help. EDs have a way of getting worse if you don't get help. Right now you may "just" not eat when you are stressed, but that could easily lead to constant starvation and/or binge/purge cycles.
Try to keep posting here so you get some support, but like I said before, this is not enough. You need someone to talk to in person, to give you hugs when you're down, and someone who will listen when you need to talk.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina