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| Thu, 07-29-2004 - 1:37pm |
Hi, I have been lurking around here for awhile and I guess been trying to figure out what I really wanted to say. I am just not sure where exactly I fit into this. I am 5'6 and 132 pounds, not underweight by any stretch but I am feeling that my eating habits are not so good, neither is my self esteem. I was eating as little as 800 calories a day and bumped it up to 1000-1200 and that was a big step. I want to weight 125 but mostly I just want to feel thin and beautiful. I excersise every day and only take off the days when I am exhausted I don't want to push it. I used to weigh 30 pounds more and honestly was fairly hapy with myself. I am perfectionist and feel the need to be...perfect in every sense of the word. I just really don't know what to do, but I think i need some advice. I hardly ever eat anything with more than 5 grams of fat in it. I am always reading and comparing the nutrition facts of things and write everything i eat in an online foo diary. I haven't had any of the things I used to eat in so long for fear that I will gain weight and for fear that I will just fall into eating bad again and regain all the weight. I guess I just feel that if I don't eat it I will always be able to control my weight and aim to be perfect. I also feel that I am being irrational because there are diet posters and advertisements everywhere so to start eating more just seems stupid. I would appreciate any advice on what's going on here. Everyone seems so supportive and I guess that's why I am writing this. Thanks.
Edited 7/29/2004 1:39 pm ET ET by sapphire0702
Edited 7/30/2004 12:21 pm ET ET by sapphire0702

Hugs, Michelle
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