Needing To Know

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-28-2004
Needing To Know
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Fri, 08-06-2004 - 8:12pm
I have a question for everyone. Since the age of 15 (Im 32 now) I have found the need at various times to get rid of what I have eaten. It never leaves me but seems to be extra worse at certain times... Sometimes i feel this is killing me... i cant fight the urge when i have it.

I was told by a doc that it was bulimia.. but when one has bulimia.. do they have times when it is stronger than b4... im not underweight, in fact i could stand to lose weight. Something that preys on my mind constantly.. i ALWAYS think about it. I also feel helpless because of it.

I pretend that I have no problem discussing my weight butin reality I DRED anyone saying anyting about it. I despise myself..

Ive been in therapy for it many times but havnet found that anything has helped, including the different meds that I have been on.

Any advice?

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-16-2003
Fri, 08-06-2004 - 8:41pm
Oh yes,

I can relate. I am 36 and have dealt with this on and off since I was 12. I do not have bulemia symptoms any longer; I did when I was about 18 and 19. Through my 20's on and off I dealt with ED. I was diagnosed at the beginning of this year with anorexia, now my weight is almost normal so now I am diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified--I think, lol).

Yes, it is normal to have times that are worse than others. Sometimes people can think of something that may have triggered it and sometimes it just seems to come back. Have you considered trying a new therapist?

Please come back anytime.

Hugs, Michelle


It's not the speed, but the distance.

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 08-08-2004 - 7:46am

Hi - like Michelle already said, your symptoms can be worse at times than before. It is also a misconception that people with and ED 'should' be underweight. You can read more about EDs at our community website http://pages.ivillage.com/eatingdisorders/

Love & hugs, Kristina