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Registered: 08-16-2004
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Mon, 08-16-2004 - 9:04pm
I'm going into treatment for so-called anorexia at the start of September. I don't think I'm really deserving of it because I CAN NOT stick to my diets. I CAN'T. I'm constantly slipping up either just a little bit or a whole bunch. A lot of days I'll beat myself up because I'll eat enough to be comparable to someone who eats "normally." Some days I totally lose it and just stuff my face. I don't exactly know what they mean by "restricting" but I don't eat anything with fat. I try not to. Except on my binge days, which happen about once every week or two. On a perfect day, I eat my 500 calories and burn them off.

Anyway, I've slowly cut back enough to drop a few pounds a month. I'm nearing 75 (I'm 5'2) and I want to get to 70 before I have to go to the hospital. I don't know why I'm trying to dig myself DEEPER into this hole when I'll just have to climb out of it.

My question for any of you out there with anorexia is do you ever screw up? Do you ever binge (and not purge)? How often? How much do you eat when that happens? Please tell me I'm not alone!

Christina.

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Registered: 04-16-2003
In reply to: t33n3y
Mon, 08-16-2004 - 9:31pm
Christina,

You are not alone. I used to binge a lot and not purge, but would restrict (or not consume) fat for days afterward.... so I would binge then starve, then binge then starve. What happened is I did it for years and years on and off and my heart freaked out. I know now that I have to stay at a healthy weight and eat certain foods. Don't get me wrong, I am not perfect... I am still slightly underweight and there are certain foods I avoid, but I am doing much better.

I am glad you are getting help. You are deserving of it... try not to beat yourself up.

Huge hugs to you! Check out www.somethingfishy.org www.eatingdisordersanonymous.org

Michelle

 

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Registered: 08-16-2004
In reply to: t33n3y
Tue, 08-17-2004 - 12:13am
But I eat way too much to be anorexic.

There are people out there, lots of people, who have the willpower to starve and they need the help. I can hold on.

How many calories would you consume in a binge? What kinds of foods?
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: t33n3y
Tue, 08-17-2004 - 1:02am

"But I eat way too much to be anorexic."


Since when is anorexia measured by how many calories per day you consume? That is not the only thing common among anorexics. Please go here http://pages.ivillage.com/eatingdisorders/id2.html

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 08-16-2004
In reply to: t33n3y
Tue, 08-17-2004 - 10:42am
I'm fourteen.

I rarely can eat just 500 a day but that is a perfect number to me.