thin goal

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Registered: 07-14-2004
thin goal
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Wed, 08-18-2004 - 7:18pm
I want to be thin. I weigh myself too much. But some days I just do not care and have to eat piles of junk food. This ticks me off. I want to be thin and sexy!

Sorry just needed to vent.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: butterflymood
Wed, 08-18-2004 - 10:50pm

Hi,


I am glad you came here to vent and I can relate to that feeling. However, there is so much more to life than being thin, one. Two, it is 'us' who think that thin = sexy but that's not necessarily true. Most men don't think that women who are thin are sexy (not that that's important either) and beauty lies in the eye of the beholder anyhow.


Can you share a little more about yourself - how long have you had an ED, what are you doing for recovery if anything, what have you tried in the past, etc. If you don't feel comfortable sharing that's cool, too, I understand.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-14-2004
In reply to: butterflymood
Thu, 08-19-2004 - 8:57am
Well, it started after the birth of my child and I realized that the pounds from multiple pregnancies were stacking up and I was not the thin person I had been all my life. I cannot fit in any of my clothes etc. I did not even try exercise. I just starved myself. And the pounds came off and everyone praised me and I had to lie about how I was losing it. Everyone in family in work in friends kept praising me and I wanted more and I wanted to be thinner. I want to look good to myself and them and I want to wear all those thin slinky clothes and have no fat(i hate that word). I am not getting any help (do not yell at me) but I absolutely have no time for me (and this is not an excuse) I take care of other people and the me factor is way low. Young children, elerly parents, etc take all my time. I do nothing for me. But I am okay with that. Taking care of them is important to me. They need me. I just see all these other people who look great and I see myself and I do not look all that great. Maybe its some self esteem issues also. Anyway, I do not eat until I absoltely have to and then I watch every little calorie. I try to fill up on diet soda and water and thats works some days. Guess that is way too much info from me.

Sorry but thanks for asking.

Butterfly.
iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: butterflymood
Thu, 08-19-2004 - 9:14am

Hi Butterfly,


Please don't apologize, that's not too much info. Thank you for sharing a little more about yourself.


I understand the desire to take care of your children and elderly parents, I am somewhat of a caretaker myself, but unless you take care of yourself, you won't be able to be there for them. I can't imagine how hard it must be to have children and parents to take care of. Can you talk to your husband about working out some what the you can have a little time to yourself every week? If you get burned out, and it sounds like you are going in that direction, then you won't be able to be there for anybody.


I wouldn't yell at you for not getting help, but I will say that it would make a big difference in your recovery. You are obviously obsessed with how you look (like most of us), and you are going to extremes to be 'thin'. A therapist could help you with those feelings and also to figure out what the real cause of your eating disorder is. You may think that you are ok with taking care of everybody but in reality it may be the cause of your ED - I am not saying it is, this is just an example. Also, not eating and filling up on soda will eventually cause you to gain weight. I know this is scary, but our bodies are amazing at self defense. Before we had technology people would go for long times with little or no food so the body adapts by one, putting on fat as food is taken away, and two, slowing down its metabolism to conserve that fat. I know this is a difficult thing to internalize and it's hard to start eating more, but with regular small meals throughout the day you will actually have a healthy lean body.


Just think about it and see if you can make some time for yourself. Check out our community web page on EDs (link at top of page) and also check out www.somethingfishy.org. And of course come here and post any time you need to.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-24-2004
In reply to: butterflymood
Thu, 08-19-2004 - 10:44pm
Just wanted to offer some love and support. I weigh myself a lot, too. In fact, I weigh myself just about every day. I also just want to be thin and I sometimes starve myself, and then eat a lot of junk food as well. It's really frustrating, but I just can't seem to stop. I'm not currently getting any help for it either, other than iVillage. iVillage, of course, has been a great help, though. I wish I had some advice for you, but I'm just really lost myself right now. I just wanted you to know that you aren't alone. I'm sorry that it took me so long to reply to your post, too. I was in Maine on vacation the past week.