School....

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Registered: 06-05-2004
School....
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Mon, 08-23-2004 - 12:14pm
I start school in a week, everytime I think about it, it reminds me of how stressed and busy I'm going to be. I get like this weird "wave" of anxiety that hits me everytime I think of going back to school. See, in a way I love school, b/c I get to see my friends and I dont have time to snack all day so I often feel better about my eating, but I also get nervous b/c I am going to be sooo busy and it often triggers my "ED"<( I still dont believe I have an ed but i dont know what else to call it) But then again, I think I WANT it to trigger my ed. I have 3 college classes and cheerleading then of course my friends and my boyfriend, along with family and sometimes working. It just really stresses me out. I know I shouldnt put myself in this position, but I cant quite cheerleading and I feel kinda dumb if I dont take hard classes.
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Registered: 04-16-2003
In reply to: caitlin2o05
Tue, 08-24-2004 - 1:11pm
Are you taking part high school/ part college classes? If that is too much for you, then just take what is required.... you don't want to burn yourself out. Don't feel dumb if you don't take certain classes, you obviously are very smart. Have you considered counseling for this?

Take care, Michelle

 

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Registered: 06-05-2004
In reply to: caitlin2o05
Tue, 08-24-2004 - 10:28pm
Yes, I am going to be a senior and im taking 3 AP classes and 3 "normal" high school classes. The only thing is there really isnt any other classes I can take, b/c I have already taken all the required ones. Plus, I kinda need to take these classes in order to get into the college I want. I have considered counseling, but I will not tell my parents about my "problem" b/c I feel like I dont have a problem, I havent lost any weight, acually I have gained weight. So, I dont think id be considered anorexic. I think im like at the bottom 23rd percentil for my height, but Im not like really tiny or anything, although I would love to be. I do however have almost all of the other sysmtoms of anorexia. I have also TRIED to throw up before, but only like 3 times, and it never works.
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Registered: 07-24-2004
In reply to: caitlin2o05
Wed, 08-25-2004 - 10:03am
I'm sorry that it's taken me so long to reply to your post. It sounds like you are under a lot of stress, and I think that's pretty normal for your senior year of high school. I'm sure that cheerleading adds stress, too, although it seems like you really enjoy it, so I definitely wouldn't quit. It sounds like you are really intelligent, and I'm really proud of you for taking some AP classes. Please try not to stress yourself out too much, though. Remember that your senior year of high school is supposed to be FUN, too. College comes with its own stresses, but it's fun, too. I'm all for being serious about academics and doing your best, but just try not to be too hard on yourself.