back at college *trigger*

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Registered: 07-24-2004
back at college *trigger*
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Tue, 08-31-2004 - 9:36am
I'm back at college now, and I seem to be getting worse than ever. There's no one watching what I do or don't do, so I can skip meals whenever I want and not eat much at them when I do. It's hard not to be accountable to anyone because I don't feel any desire to try to eat when I don't feel like it, and I also don't really have anyone to check my behavior. I have to admit that in some ways, I really like it, though. I know that's bad, but I just can't seem to help it. It just feel so good to be totally in control of myself.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 6:45pm
Sounds like this is a good time to check into counseling through your college. :)

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 07-24-2004
Tue, 08-31-2004 - 8:24pm
I actually went to dinner with my sinkmates tonight. (My sinkmates are the girls that live in the room next to me. We share a little connecting room with a sink and a mirror in it.) They are really nice and I am hoping to get to know them better. One of the girls made a comment that bothered me tonight, though. She was telling one of her short friends how skinny she is, but the girls looks pretty normal-sized to me. No one said anything to me, and it just made me feel really fat. In some ways, I just want to lose a lot of weight so that they will notice and pay more attention to me. I kind of want to be known as "the super skinny girl." I have this huge poster of Paris Hilton on my wall for thinsperation.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 09-01-2004 - 6:37pm
Like I said, it sounds like it's time to check into counseling with your college. And I would take down the picture of Paris Hilton as well.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 10-23-2003
Thu, 09-02-2004 - 7:21pm
I can empathise with you; on the one hand it is great because you can be autonomous and not have to worry about your parents or anyone on your back about what you are and are not eating, although it is scary isn't it? being the one in control for once, although i don't have that now, try not to skip so much it makes you even more obsessed, ask yourself if it is honestly worth all the energy, which i am lacking :), look after yourself..

jade
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Registered: 06-17-2004
Mon, 09-06-2004 - 10:30am

Hey sweetie,


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Registered: 07-24-2004
Mon, 09-06-2004 - 12:24pm
Sam,

Hey, thanks for being so sweet to me. It really means a lot to me. I'm sorry that you are feeling pretty down yourself lately. I've lost about five pounds since I started school, and I feel pretty good, but I still feel fat. It doesn't make any sense. Does it ever seem like the more weight you lose, the fatter you feel? I hope that you are feeling better. I love you lots!

Love,

Reba

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Registered: 09-17-2004
Fri, 09-17-2004 - 1:14am
I know how you feel,,, i'm back at school too and it's so easy to slip into old patterns. Plus stress and everything, sometimes I just cant bring myself to eat correctly. Hang in there! I hope to chat with you soon!

Love

Kate