Ugh! Feelin gross today :(
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Ugh! Feelin gross today :(
| Thu, 09-02-2004 - 10:04pm |
I feel so gross today. I've been trying really hard to eat more healthy balanced meals everyday, but I find myself caving so easily. Today at work I had a piece of this cake that one of my co-workers had brought in. It was the last piece of the cake. At first I cut it in half, and put the rest back in the fridge. Then I was like, hmm that was good, maybe I'll just finish it. But I had already eaten my lunch, and I was kinda full. That didn't matter though. I ate it. Now I feel so gross and fat. I didnt' even want to eat dinner, but I did because of my parents.
I wish I could just say no to all that kind of stuff, but I don't know how. It's like I have to have it even though I know that after I've eaten it I'll feel like crap. Do any of you girls ever experience this? What I don't understand is why I'm doing it. It's not like I was upset or anything. I just have this urge to eat stuff I don't really WANT to eat. Am I being too hard on myself?

Yes, you are being rather hard on yourself, but then most of us are. It takes time and practice to learn to forgive yourself and not dwell on the past. You will get there.
The food thing is hard and what I have found for myself is that cutting out all sugar works best. And when I say sugar I mean sugar, syrup, Splenda, aspartame, honey...you get the picture. At first I thought that would be too restrictive and I was craving it. I tried just cutting out regular sugar and just having Splenda but I still kept craving sweets and carbs and I was constantly hungry. I finally gave it all up and after about 3 days of craving it the cravings stopped. Now the only time I might crave sweets is during PMS, but even that has gotten better. Sometimes I give in and have some Splenda in a rice protein shake and that's all I need. I used to put at least 3 to 5 Splendas in a shake but that's way too sweet now.
I have also chosen to give up grains - for health reasons mainly - and that has helped to. But again, those are personal choices that I found work for me after a lot of trial and error with other stuff. If you want more info on this email me offline some time at kotabuddy@yahoo.com.
Hang in there girl - with perserverance it CAN and WILL get better. You're not alone!!
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
I had a feeling I ws being too hard on myself. It's a bad habit of mine that I really need to break. What bugs me the most is, when I'm feeling like that, I know that exercising will make me feel better (and I don't mean crazy, over-the-top exercising, just something moderate that makes me sweat), but for some reason I'm too stubborn. I won't do it. It's like I'm trying to punish myself or something. I guess it is my sub concious hope that I will learn from that and not over eat again, but OBVIOUSLY that hasn't worked yet! I guess it's time for a change!
Anyway, thanks again for your support :) It means so much!
Stephanie
Anyway, I'm starting therapy soon, so hopefully it will help. I feel like I need it more and more everyday. I hope you are doing ok at school and everything, though :) And you should also try not to be so hard on yourself either. Just go out and have some fun!
ttys,
stephanie