tired of eating

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Registered: 09-06-2004
tired of eating
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Tue, 09-07-2004 - 2:41pm
im 16,and i eat so much , everytime im bored i eat , i have like no life and i cant drive yet cause i just had my birthday ,but everytime i look in the mirror i see myself looking like im 165 pounds , but my friends say i look like im 110 pounds ,i just dont see what they see . im 5''8 and weigh less than 135 pounds , but i just feel so fat , ive stopped eating be4 , but i dont have enough self control to go through with it , i wanna look like all the girls in the magazines and at school that are skinny and can eat anything .there have been times where ive almost made myself throw up , but i hate throwing up , its grose , i just dont like how fat i look , i dont know what to do , if i am skinny then why do i think i look fat?why am i so unhappy with the way i look?
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Registered: 04-16-2003
Tue, 09-07-2004 - 4:25pm
It is common for those of us with ED to see ourselves bigger than we really are. We are our worst critics. A lot of people want to look like those girls in the magazines, but it just isn't healthy. My son is 18 and I hear him and his friends talking about girls all the time, and they would prefer healthy rather than skinny. They prefer Beyonce to the stick figure gals in the magazines.

Have you tried counseling? I know that you are under 18, but there are places that offer counseling without parental consent, the trouble is finding them. You may want to call places in your area and see what you can find. or www.somethingfishy.org has treatment/counselers listed.

 

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Registered: 09-06-2004
Tue, 09-07-2004 - 4:35pm
ya , but the only problem is that i cant drive ,i only just turned 16 ,im not gonna beableto get my license till march ,ive already had my guidence councelor call my mom and ask her to take me to a shrink , but my mom said no , but it was for a different reason, im depressed and stuff and she doesnt believe me cause i try to hide it , but thanx , i think ill try that .
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Registered: 07-24-2004
Wed, 09-08-2004 - 1:08am
I'm in college, but I'm having a lot of the same problems that you are. I'm also 5'8" and weigh about 130 lbs right now. I struggle a lot with wanting to not eat and with wanting to look like the girls in the fashion magazines, too. I'm actually writing an essay about it right now for my Creative Nonfiction: Cultural Issues class right now. I really admire Paris Hilton, and the essay is mostly about her. Anyway, I'm sort of starting to ramble. It's pretty late here, and I can't sleep, but luckily I don't have to get up very early tomorrow. Please feel free to e-mail me if you need or want to talk more. I'll do my best to be there for you and support you since I'm having some similar problems.

Reba

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Registered: 03-25-2004
Thu, 09-09-2004 - 10:52am

(((hugs)))


It pains me to see someone so young struggling like this. I struggled in high school, and it just makes life miserable.


Can you talk to your mom about what's going on? I know it's hard, but if you can muster up the courage to tell her what your real issues are, she will probably be more receptive to counseling and getting you help. I know mom's seem prehistoric and bull headed, but don't forget that she's a woman too and has probably had many self esteem and weight issues herself. Who hasn't?


If that's not an option, please keep talking to your guidance counselor. Sometimes that's all we've got, and it's better than nothing!


Take care of yourself.


Rayah

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Registered: 09-06-2004
Thu, 09-09-2004 - 5:53pm
i have tried talking to my mom ,but i hate her and she wont do anything , she is and irresponsible selfish adult , i have to nag her to the point where she starts cussing at me to do anything, normally it would be rude to nag, but if i dont she wont get us anything we need , well shell have everything she needs , but i wont , she has never helpedme .

i do have an appointment with my guidence councelor onmonday !so hopefully well beable to comeup with something.