need a little help

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-21-2004
need a little help
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Tue, 09-21-2004 - 11:23pm
Hi guys,

I've never posted here, but I'm starting to think i really need someone's advice. Here goes...

I used to seriously restrict and purge when i did eat something. But that was a looonnng time ago, like 4-5 years ago. It was mostly because I was training for gymnastics and felt a lot of pressure to keep my body very small. I never thought I had a problem with my body image, it was just what I had to do for me to do well in my sport. As soon as I stopped training, I pretty much stopped all that garbage and felt really good.

Recently I started having a lot of thoughts about my body and my appearance. I feel really self-concious. I started cutting back the cals and all that, but i had a hard time. So I started purging again, and now I cant stop myself anytime i eat anything. On the one side I'm really embarassed, especially when a good friend of mine found out. But I'm confused because sometimes I feel proud of myself. And I really like the way I'm starting to look. I just dont understand whats happening.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 09-22-2004 - 6:23am
Hi and welcome to the board. It sounds like there are some unresolved issues that you never dealt with. Do you struggle with self-confidence maybe? Feeling proud is not unusual in people with EDs. I think it would be best if you tried to find a good therapist to see what's truly going on. EDs are typically just a way for us to deal with soemthing we don't want to deal with.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina