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| Fri, 09-24-2004 - 1:55am |
I need help and I need to know how to go about it.
So my main defects are(in order of occurence):
1
Insecurity resulting from childhood shyness and poor communication skills, fear
2
Depression Resulting from Insecurity(Antisocial,Shy,Afraid)
3
Bulimia(non-stop unreasonable eating and occasional purging) Resulting from Depression and Insecurity; Causes me to be obsessed with food so I have no time for my goals, adds more Depression.
4
and now Insecurity and Depression Resulting from Bulimia AND Insecurity and Depression
I really just want to stop this. It is not something I enjoy, I just want to feel more secure and stop feeling dead inside. I am having serious thoughts about not going to my non career related work tomorrow because I was doing the eating thing today and again didnt have tome to work on my love. It's happening everyday now, I wasn't purging at first, hell I was even COMPLETELY against the idea of bulimics. but it happened. my hair is feeling weaker and my teeth are hurting/the enamel is rotting off. I have only been doing this for about the last 2 months. it's too much. I have always been okay with the way my body is. I dont want to change my body. I just want to get my life back.
Who should I see first? And what should I do about work tomorrow?
Respond soon Thank you!

Oh Sweetie,
A great board for finding therapist and chats and health info.... etc. is www.somethingfishy.org I think it's good that you listed everything out, sometimes it helps to list things and look at them from a different perscpective. As far as work goes, is there a preferance... I mean like do you feel safer going to work and being out of the house? If you ever get really stressed and have suicidal thoughts call 1-800-SUICIDE.
Hi Sweetie,
You are already one step ahead just by knowing that you have emotional issues and what they are. I personally would try to find a therapist and ideally someone who has experience helping people with EDs.
The website Michelle mentioned is very good and will help you in your search for a therapist. It also has other resources listed. Please keep checking in here, too, and get additional support.
If you can make it to work today it might actually help you from bingeing. At the same time I know how difficult it is to be at work when you feel miserable. This is really something only you can decide.
Please let us know what you decide, how you are feeling today, and how things are going in general.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina