I am sorry you are struggling so much but you are not alone. Most of us here if not all of us can relate to what you are going through. I will try to answer your questions as best as I can.
How can I get over this?
I would most definitely start seeing a therapist as soon as possible and maybe even check into some group meetings like www.overeatersanonymous.org. On this website you can fidn meetings close to you.
How can feel hungry again? Once you learn to deal with your emotions appropriately, you will also start to learn when you are truly hungry and when you are eating for emotional reasons. The way to learn how to deal with your emotions, and uncover the real reason you have an ED, is by seeing a therapist and/or going to group meetings. Additionally I would try to get as much support from your boyfriend, friends and family, and here as well.
How can I learn what is best for my body and what is not?
I am not sure if you are talking about food and eating here or not, but you can educate yourself on how to eat in a healthy manner by reading books. One book I really like is The Metabolic Typing Diet by William Wolcott. Don't think this is a diet book in the sense of loosing weight. This book will help you figure out what your metabolic type is and based on that what the best foods for you are and the ratios in which you should be eating them.
Deep down inside I know everything about healthy food, but my mind just doesn't want to accept it.
Again, once you start working on emotional issues with a therapist this will follow as well. It just all takes time and sometimes that's the hardest part of recovery. Don't give up, recovery IS possible.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Thank you for being there for me, it is so good to know that somebody listens to what I wanna say.
I have decided that I am not going to therapy, I just couldn't do it. I have a lot of other things to take care of (looking for a job, school, my relationship,...).
I don't even wanna go to therapy, I don't have time for that. My parents would get mad at me because I've been looking for a job for a long time now, without any success. I know they want me to work.
My dad doesn't understand stuff like that, he doesn't really care about eating disorders. He is the one I get money from, and I think he wouldn't support me anymore if I would start going to a therapy, and qiut looking for a job. I would have less time for all the other things I have to do, and I don't want that. I want to put a lot of time into school.
But I believe in myself. I believe that I can get over it without therapy.
I decided to write down how I feel about myself every day.
I already got books about healthy food, I surfed around the internet for information,...
I will take notes about everything I do: about working-out, about eating, about what I do for school, about how I feel, how something makes me feel,...
I can do it.
And I can always come back to this board and ask for advice, right?
I am glad you are feeling better today. I do want to clarify that I did mean you should stop ALL therapy. What I meant is to continue seeing the therapist you now have and tell her that you are not ready for an out- or inpatient therapy group. I am sorry if what I said was confusing. Therapy is an important part of recovery.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Oh Ina,
You wrote:
Hi Ina,
I am sorry you are struggling so much but you are not alone. Most of us here if not all of us can relate to what you are going through. I will try to answer your questions as best as I can.
How can I get over this?
I would most definitely start seeing a therapist as soon as possible and maybe even check into some group meetings like www.overeatersanonymous.org. On this website you can fidn meetings close to you.
How can feel hungry again?
Once you learn to deal with your emotions appropriately, you will also start to learn when you are truly hungry and when you are eating for emotional reasons. The way to learn how to deal with your emotions, and uncover the real reason you have an ED, is by seeing a therapist and/or going to group meetings. Additionally I would try to get as much support from your boyfriend, friends and family, and here as well.
How can I learn what is best for my body and what is not?
I am not sure if you are talking about food and eating here or not, but you can educate yourself on how to eat in a healthy manner by reading books. One book I really like is The Metabolic Typing Diet by William Wolcott. Don't think this is a diet book in the sense of loosing weight. This book will help you figure out what your metabolic type is and based on that what the best foods for you are and the ratios in which you should be eating them.
Deep down inside I know everything about healthy food, but my mind just doesn't want to accept it.
Again, once you start working on emotional issues with a therapist this will follow as well. It just all takes time and sometimes that's the hardest part of recovery. Don't give up, recovery IS possible.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
Don't you think I can do this on my own?
I don't wanna go to therapy...
Isn't it possible that I can do this with my boyfriend?
Love,
...INA...
Hi Ina,
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Love & hugs, Kristina
Thank you for being there for me, it is so good to know that somebody listens to what I wanna say.
I have decided that I am not going to therapy, I just couldn't do it. I have a lot of other things to take care of (looking for a job, school, my relationship,...).
I don't even wanna go to therapy, I don't have time for that. My parents would get mad at me because I've been looking for a job for a long time now, without any success. I know they want me to work.
My dad doesn't understand stuff like that, he doesn't really care about eating disorders. He is the one I get money from, and I think he wouldn't support me anymore if I would start going to a therapy, and qiut looking for a job. I would have less time for all the other things I have to do, and I don't want that. I want to put a lot of time into school.
But I believe in myself. I believe that I can get over it without therapy.
I decided to write down how I feel about myself every day.
I already got books about healthy food, I surfed around the internet for information,...
I will take notes about everything I do: about working-out, about eating, about what I do for school, about how I feel, how something makes me feel,...
I can do it.
And I can always come back to this board and ask for advice, right?
Thanks a lot!!!
Love,
...Ina...
Hey Ina,
I am glad you are feeling better today. I do want to clarify that I did mean you should stop ALL therapy. What I meant is to continue seeing the therapist you now have and tell her that you are not ready for an out- or inpatient therapy group. I am sorry if what I said was confusing. Therapy is an important part of recovery.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina