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Tue, 10-19-2004 - 4:06pm
First, I'm sorry I keep posting about me being so confussed, but I really don't have anyone else to talk to. Recently I have been doing worse, for once I have acually started to lose some weight. I would say I eat around 500-700 cals/day I know that is terrible but anything more just scares me. Every night when I go to bed I think back on what I ate and I think to myself, " That is so much food, tomorrow cut that amount in half." Ugh I just don't understand WHY I am doing this! I feel kinda like I am doing it for attention, but I dont truly think that is the reason. It's almost like I just want to know that I acually have the self-control to not eat or something, or like its just something to keep me preoccupied. I can't tell my parents, its just too much of an embarressment and I think they would be mad, I cant really talk to my friends b/c they dont understand and my BF deff. doesnt understand. My nutrition teachers started asking me if i was on a diet, b/c I dont usually eat the food we make but rather bring some veggies instead. I almost want to tell her (my teacher) but I know she would call my mom or somthing. And again I would feel as though im starving myself just for attention.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: caitlin2o05
Wed, 10-20-2004 - 7:08am

First, you don't have to apologize for what you are posting. Ideally I would love for you to feel better because I know how miserable it is to do what you are doing to yourself, but you can come here and talk about what's goign on anytime.


You are probably correct that you are starving for attention and there is probably more to it than just that. A therapist could help you figure all that out. Eventually you will have to tell your parents or somebody who can take you to a therapist. In the meantime you can try to find OA or EDA meetings in your area and attend those. They are free and nobody even has to know your real name if you don't want them to.


I don't want you to feel like you can't keep posting here if you don't start seeing a therapist or start going to group meetings, but I want you to be aware that recovery is highly unlikely if you don't. This board is great for support, but it's not enough to get you where you need to be - past the pain and to freedom.

Love & hugs, Kristina


The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.

Love & hugs, Kristina