Do I have ED?
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Do I have ED?
| Tue, 11-02-2004 - 5:44am |
Hi,
I don't like the idea of starving or throwing up and I certainly don't like the bone-skinny look at all. The idea of losing my breasts and butt with weight loss actually depresses me more than being a bit fleshy.
I don't like the idea of starving or throwing up and I certainly don't like the bone-skinny look at all. The idea of losing my breasts and butt with weight loss actually depresses me more than being a bit fleshy.
My diet is relatively normal although I tend to avoid starchy foods because they make me sleepy (and yeah, they make me put on weight too easily).
But at night, on a regular basis, I find myself chewing and spitting junk food like ice cream and chips and ramen noodles. Is this what you would call an eating disorder?

While what you are describing does not sound like it would harm you (physically), it is definitely not “normal” – and please don’t take that the wrong way. There are many forms of an ED. Chewing and spitting out food is a typical “anorexic” thing to do. Most, if not all, Eds are due to emotional issues. I would start to question why you REALLY go through this behaviour and possibly go see a therapist before it does get out of hand. From what I have seen with Eds, they can start very harmless and in no time, if emotional issues are not addressed, turn into a full blown ED.
Love & hugs, Kristina
The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.
Love & hugs, Kristina
So I don't have an eating disorder per se, then... ? I don't know.
I have been doing the chew and spit thing for a long time. I read that anorexics and bullimics do that. But I don't binge and purge. I hate the idea of vomiting. It's just distressing to me. But I do get depressed if I can't pass motion. I need some sort of cleansing.
However, yesterday I made the mistake of weighing myself and found that I was 120 pounds. I'm 5 feet 4. I remember that two years ago, I was about 96 pounds. So I was so shocked and how MUCH I weigh (yes even though medically it is normal weight, normal BMI) - because I have a small appetite to begin with (and not by choice).
After weighing, this morning I began to starve. Poked around at my food, drank a lot of water... I just CAN'T be 120 pounds!