Wrote this 6th Oct 05 (be cautious)

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Registered: 09-05-2005
Wrote this 6th Oct 05 (be cautious)
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Sun, 01-08-2006 - 12:18pm

The voices with in me!

The voices within me are tugging my heart,
I want them to stay but also depart,
One says, some more, the ribs you can see,
Count them, please count them, you'll never be free!

The numbers they haunt me, the scales tell my fate,
Controlling my thoughts,they make me irate,
Step on and off and see what I weigh,
Will I be happy at the number display?

Just one more pill the voice says to me,
It'll help you feel pleased at what you will see,
Lose all the fat, the bones then stick out,
Feeling the pain, when sitting about.

The voices within me are tugging my heart,
I feel all the guilt but where do I start,
This voice it says, its making you sick,
Going downhill quicker than quick!

Your body is suffering, it's showing defeat,
Is this what you want, constant deceit?,
Living that lie, crying those tears,
Not facing up to the pain from the years.

I want to be free but not lose control,
Improving my life not in part but in whole,
Defeating the voices that drive me each day,
Living in truth and not disarray!

The pain is increasing as timepasses by,
I know I must kick this, I can't live this lie,
Forgetting the past I've wasted in torment,
Time to be free, full of contentment.

I don't need the guilt, I feel it enough,
SO please understand, this is so tough,
To feel as I do and want to be free,
Trying and trying tho' you may disagree.

Sure, of those of you who read, this will be exactly as you feel :-(
Lisa xx

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Registered: 09-06-2005
Sun, 01-08-2006 - 4:18pm

Very well expressed, Lisa (((hugs)))


 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 09-03-2005
Mon, 01-09-2006 - 1:52pm
Hi Lisa. You've captured the feelings so well in this piece. Wow. Thanks for posting this.
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Registered: 03-28-2003
Wed, 01-11-2006 - 1:28pm

Lisa,

This is absolutely beautiful, heart felt, touching, moving, and so many more things that I just can't put into words.

Please allow me to introduce myself, my name is Gloria and I have been around this board off and on for years. I am a recovering anorexic. My journey with anorexia has been going on for 27 years now and TODAY I am the winner.

I just want you to know that you can deal with the pain and the torment of your past and come out ok on theother side. I am living proof of that. If oyu ever need to talk, please contact me.

Gloria