Slipping (again) - help!!

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Registered: 12-16-2005
Slipping (again) - help!!
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Wed, 01-11-2006 - 11:35pm
Hi, I'm still a little new here, and I need some advice. I was doing fairly well off and on, for the most part, with my anorexia, even through the holidays. Then, starting about a week ago, I started severely restricting again. Last night, my husband and I were talking about it, and, for the first time in a long time, I realized that he was right and that my eating habits lately (or lack thereof) have been really bad and I broke down and cried. I usually just pass his comments off (about my not eating enough) as 'food policing'. But, last night, I couldn't deny it any longer. Today, I ate a little better. I ate 2 meals as opposed to the usual 1 to 1 1/2. I don't know what sets me off and sends me in a downward spiral. I'm in therapy, but I'm considering outpatient treatment (groups, etc.) as well. Does anyone know what the criteria for outpatient is? Do you have to be underweight? Although I have major body image problems, I am currently a healthy weight for my height and frame. Also, as far as I can tell I'm not losing any weight. Thanks for your help.
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Registered: 09-05-2005
Thu, 01-12-2006 - 8:45am
Hi there,
I can kind of relate to how you feel regarding food and other things. I am not sure about out patients but I do know that by seeing a psychologist helps by talking about last night for the first time, I made the biggest step ever and went to a self help group for people with eating disorders. I would suggest giving it a try. I was kind of worried I would know someone however, who ever I would see would be in the same situation so I wouldn't worry!
Let me know how you get on and if you wanna talk, just email me...........address in my profile!
Lisa xxx
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Fri, 01-13-2006 - 2:51pm

Hi kittywitty,


I like your screen name

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 01-13-2006 - 9:09pm

Hi kittywitty,

I am glad you posted - welcome to the board. Admitting that you need help is a HUGE step and I think it's awesome that you were able to do so. I don't think being underweight is a criteria for outpatient but you could call around and probably find out more.

Do you feel that that therapist you are seeing is helpful? Have you mentioned your concern with body image? If you don't feel like you are making progress with her perhaps it's time to find a new therapist? It's just a suggestion.

What ever you decide to do I hope you will keep posting to get support and share with us. I look forward to getting to know you better.

Love & hugs, Kristina


“It helps to resign as the controller of your fate. All that energy we expend to keep things running right is not what keeps things running right.” ANNE LAMOTT



The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.


Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 12-16-2005
Sun, 01-29-2006 - 2:42am

I've known that I've needed help for a long time. I started trying to recover three years ago or so, even though I've had these ed's most of my life, I'm 35. I had other issues that had to be dealt with first in therapy. I talk to my therapist about my body image all the time. She is actually quite helpful. However, she can only help me so much when I'm resisting help. I do good for awhile then I sink back into the pit. I'm on meds, but since I'm not consistently doing bad, I don't think that an increase is necessary and neither does my therapist.

Anyway, tonight was a bad night. It started out good, my husband and I went out to shoot pool. I even wore a shirt that showed my stomach which is something I haven't done hardly at all lately. Then, a couple of songs played back to back on the jukebox and they triggered me. When I'm doing good, I'll hear these songs on the radio and I'll change the station. I've been trying to eat better over the past couple days and have been successful. I think that I got triggered because I'm in a delicate state right now and not feeling particularly strong. I was going to go shopping for some new jeans today, but I think that it's in my best interest to wait until I feel better again. I just don't ever feel like I'm going to be free from this monster. Sorry so long, I just want to update you on my life at the moment. BTW, thank you very much for all your replies.

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Registered: 09-06-2005
Sun, 01-29-2006 - 5:59pm

Hi, you will be free, just keep plugging along and don't give up


As you gain self confidence, self acceptance and trust you will find the courage to start letting other things take on more importance in your life.

 

 

~Diana~