Beginning to notice a trend

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Registered: 01-23-2006
Beginning to notice a trend
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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 12:23pm
Okay, when I was about 18 and 19, I started thrwoing up after I ate my lunch and dinner. I never thought anything of it, never had any side effects of it, ect, I was just able to binge and not feel fat afterwards. I got pregnant at 19, and stopped doing it, I knew I needed to stay healthy for my son. I am now 21, still trying to get off extra baby weight (he's 15 months now), and I was having problems with those last ten pounds. About three weeks ago I started throwing up again, now I can't stop. I find myself doing it even at work. I have lost almost 20 pounds in two weeks. I eat breakfast, go throw it up, eat lunch, go throw it up, go work out in the evening, go home to eat dinner, then throw it up, or I don't eat at all. I am now starting so see side effect of it. Hos is it that I did this for 1 1/2 years and never had any side effects, now I've been doing it for three weeks and already things are changing in my body, and not for the better. I think I need help, but I'm scared to ask, and I'm scared to death of re-gaining the weight! I'm not un-healthy skinny, I'm not even really all that skinny yet.
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Mon, 01-23-2006 - 2:29pm

Hi there bridgett_08,


Welcome to the ED board, I'm glad you found it.

 

 

~Diana~

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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 2:49pm

Hi bridgett_08,

I agree with Diana that it would be a good idea to go see a doctor. You are probably ok but it doesn't hurt to get checked out.

Like Diana already mentioned it is important to address any unresolved emotional issues. Women with EDs have learned to use their EDs to avoid dealing with the real issue at hand. Our EDs have become a survival mechanism for us and we need to learn to deal with life on life's terms. An experienced therapist can help you with that.

Of course you can also come here as often as you need to for support, questions, hope, etc.

Love & hugs, Kristina


“It helps to resign as the controller of your fate. All that energy we expend to keep things running right is not what keeps things running right.” ANNE LAMOTT



The opinions I have expressed here are from my own experience and are not intended as medical advice or to take the place of your own physician's advice.


Love & hugs, Kristina

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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 2:55pm
Thank ya'll so much for your responses. Maybe I just didn't notice the side effects before, and now that I have a child to worry about, I'm noticing everything. I don't know. I talked to my ex about me starting again, and he's pretty upset. He was with me when I started throwing up, and it reall scared and upset him. He and one of my friends that I no longer talk to are the only ones that know about it. He told me if I don't get help myself, he'll go to my parents with it. I just don't think it's his place to do that.
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Wed, 01-25-2006 - 11:28am

Hi Bridgett -- it's been a couple of days and I wondered how you are doing right now.


I guess you can't stop your dh from "telling" whomever he wants to.

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 01-23-2006
Fri, 01-27-2006 - 4:10pm
Well, he's not my DH, we've just been together for almost five years, and it's hard to hide things from him. I'm doing okay I guess. I'm still having a problem at night, I feel that if I got to sleep without throwing it up, then I'll wake up in the morning and be 20 pounds heavier. I talked to Ryan (my BF) about it the other day, told him it was getting bad again, and he got mad at me. Told me how it disgusted him. I asked him if he thought telling m that would somehow help me stop, and he said yes, he figured being harsh was the only way to go. I told him all it did was make me feel worse. He goes, well just, it's as simple as that. He doesn't understand that I can't just stop. As much as I want to, as hard as I try, I just can't! Anyone else been through this?
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Registered: 12-16-2004
Wed, 02-01-2006 - 12:33pm
My husband was alot like this when I started back up. He was angry and threatened to tell my sister. He also threatened to shave all his hair off (he knows I love his hair) but I continued to do it. He has backed off now with all that kindof stuff and seems to understand, which of course I'm glad about, but yet I feel terrible to put him through any of this. But I think he has just felt so helpless about it all now and has fallen into a codependant attitude. I do feel bad about that. It's hard Bridgett. The thing about people that care about us is they either become codependant because they don't know what else to do (and they are afraid of us hurting in other ways), or they try to do something about our problems by taking control and helping us get the help we can't or won't seek for ourselves. Either way it's because they love us, and they are doing their best to figure out how to help us. Hang in there and keep us updated and keep posting here. There's alot of positive support here.