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| Fri, 03-03-2006 - 7:28pm |
Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been around. I've been too busy to keep up with the boards.
I just got out of the hospital this week. I was in for my depression. When I went in I was depressed and suicidal, paranoid and psychotic.
The hospital was good for my mood. They adjusted my meds, I made friends and was away from all my stressors for awhile. As soon as I got home I started to get depressed again because I was alone, my stressors were back and my to do list is a mile long.
The hospital was bad for my ED (possible trigs). I was just surrounded by so much food all the time. I normally eat in a day what they would feed me for a meal. I ended up eating one meal, purging one meal and skipping one meal.
My new pdoc is taking my ED seriously and we are dealing with it. She referred me to a program at the hospital but needs my family doc referral.
I'm struggling with the idea that I'm too fat to have an ED.
I am also going to an ED support group which has been good.
Well that's me.
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Hi (((Amanda)))
So good to hear from you!
~Diana~
((((((((((Amanda))))))))))
I am glad that your new pdoc is taking your ED seriously, that you are talking about it, that you are going to an ED support group. I hope that you get that referral and you get into
Thanks Diana. I missed you and the others on the board. I will try to keep posting.
The leader of the ED group said that if she had a dollar for every time she heard "I'm too fat to have an eating disorder"... My pdoc tells me I'm small and I'm trying to believe her but the BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) makes it impossible for me to see it when I look in the mirror.
I see my pdoc on Wednesday and my family doc a week wednesday. I think I will tell the pdoc to go ahead and write my doc to ask for the referral. I don't know if I can handle one more thing in my life but we'll cross that bridge when it comes.
As it is I have a student waiting to meet me for tutoring and haven't started the counselling I'm going to be doing at church as well as the mental health awareness group I've been working on. Not to mention another support group that I'd like do at the ED centre and that's expressive arts. You can see some of my "art" at http://photobucket.com/albums/v229/amethyst_jean/art/
Hugs,
Thanks Poppy.
I've decided I'd go ahead with the referral and we'll see how that goes. If i don't like it I can always stop, right?
Read my reply to Diana for more from me.
Love,
Hi Amanda,
I remember some of these and some I hadn't seen before.
~Diana~