New here...where I am at...

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Registered: 07-14-2003
New here...where I am at...
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Sun, 03-05-2006 - 7:00pm
Hi All,
I'm currently in treatment for Anorexia at a local pyc. hospital. It has been an emtional first week as I get used to eatting once again. Some foods make me feel bad, but because of my health I am back to eating them. Hopefully I am putting on weight and will be out soon. I won't know because I have let go of looking at the number on the scale. But, once I am done I will be going on a wonderful vaction to my wonderful vaction spot. I can't wait!!!
While in treatment this time I realized that I no longer wanted to starve myself. I was done with this behavor. Well, as of that day I have stopped. (Even on the weekend when I am on my own.) I feel like this is once and truly done. It is over and I am about to begin the rest of my life. Though I am having trouble getting in the water, so getting it in will be my next step. This freedom feels wonderful!!!!! And I am so glad that God has lifted it from me. ~Anna
In Love and Peace, Anna

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 03-05-2006 - 8:00pm

Hi Anna,


I am glad you found us and thank you for sharing with us. It sounds like you are on the right path and doing all the right things. I hope you will continue to post here and use this board for support and encouragement when ever you need to. Recovery is awesome but also tough and you shouldn't have to do it on your own.


So where is your

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Sun, 03-05-2006 - 9:29pm

Welcome to our community, Anna.


As cl-kkcarlton has said, it really looks like you are on your way to healing and to good health, too. I am glad that you have found us and that you've decided to post. Having a safe place we can come to talk and where we get support is so important.


I also want to know about your favourite vacation spot! :-)


All my best,





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Registered: 02-06-2004
Mon, 03-06-2006 - 4:39pm

I'm so glad to hear that you no longer want to starve yourself and you're done with this behaviour. I hope as well as refeeding you they are working on your self-image. That is the hardest part. My eating disorder behaviour can go into remission so to speak but because of my poor body image it will always come back. Until I learn to accept myself at a healthy weight I will never get completely past this.


Keep posting and working hard.


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Mon, 03-06-2006 - 9:07pm
Myrtle Beach, SC
In Love and Peace, Anna
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Mon, 03-06-2006 - 9:15pm
Hi Popppy,
It's Myrtle Beach, SC. Thanks for answering me. Yes, as I read the posts I realized that this place felt like a great place for health and healing. I'm looking forward to being here and talking. Sharing my story with others and having something to lean on.
~*Anna
In Love and Peace, Anna
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Registered: 07-14-2003
Mon, 03-06-2006 - 9:49pm
Amanda,
Yes...they are helping me work on that. Just talking about it helps...we do a lot of that. That is the worst part of this illness for me. I don't like my body AT ALL! It's my weakest point. I also think I relaped this time because I was trying to get my body back to where it used to be. This was an unrealistic idea, but I still tried. Learning to live myself as is, and understanding where I am at is part of my recovery. I don't know how that will go when I start to put on weight. I just hope that I am in a different place when that happens. I'm just NOT there yet, but I have good help getting in that direction.
Hope all is well with you! How are you doing? I wish you well, ~*Anna
In Love and Peace, Anna
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Wed, 03-08-2006 - 1:12pm

The self image is a definate issue for me too and probably what keeps me wrapped in this ED web. Good to hear that you are getting help with that. If you have any useful tips that you've learned let us know!


Hugs,

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Fri, 03-10-2006 - 5:33am

Hi Anna!


Myrtle Beach sounds fantastic!


The boards are a great place to talk to other people who understand what



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Registered: 09-06-2005
Sat, 03-11-2006 - 11:59am

Hi Anna,


What an uplifting message you have shared!

 

 

~Diana~

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Sat, 03-11-2006 - 1:58pm
Don't worry I will. I find this a very healing place. In a very short time it has helped me out a lot.
In Love and Peace, Anna

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