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| Tue, 03-14-2006 - 3:08pm |
I am 21 years old, will be 22 in April. I have an almost 17 month old son, and he is my LIFE! I have been bulimic since I was 17, and only 2 people know, one of which I don't even talk to anymore. There was a point that she came and talked to my parents about it when we were still in high school, they denied it, ignored it, pretended it didn't happen. I didn't even know she had talked to them about it until a couple months ago, and it slipped out of my mother's mouth on accident. I stopped for about 11 months, when I was pregnant with my son, and about two months after I had him. Every time I looked in the mirror after having him I hated myself. Hated the way I looked, hated the way I felt, and that's when it all started again. I was so upset with myself. Now it's worse than ever, purging at least once a day, the only meal I eat. Last week I noticed blood in my spit. It's not there all the time, mostly in the mornings, and it was really bad Saturday after I purged. It's not there when I cough up phlegm (TMI, sorry), I've checked to be sure it's not coming from my lungs. I need help, I've been dizzy and tired the past two weeks, more tired than normal. I'm so scared to tell anyone. I just got into a new relationship that I would be crushed to see go down the drain. It seems like my life is spinning out of control now, and there's no way to stop it.

Hi (((Bridgett)))
~Diana~
Hi Bridgett!
I'd also like to welcome you to the board. You've done a very courageous thing - posting here for the first time - and I assure you that posting will be easier the next time.
Diana has given you some great insights and advice. All I'd like to add is that even though the thought of telling someone, going to the doctor and therapy sound scary, you've also now got to think about your little boy, too. You know what they say about taking care of other people - you've got to take care of yourself first. It's very true, and it's very important that you do.
Do you think that the fact your mother mentionned about your friend telling them about your ED wasn't a pure