New here and need a listening ear

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Registered: 03-21-2006
New here and need a listening ear
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Tue, 03-21-2006 - 11:19am
Hi I am new here and have been suffering from an eating disorder for 10 years or more. I have been in recovery (8 hospitalizations) for the past 7 years. I was in outpatient therapy for quite sometime and just recently stopped going. The therapist I was working with didn't know much about eating disorders, she just helped me with my severe depression. I was doing okay for a while, no hospitalizations for quite sometime, but now my ED has become first priority again. All I think about is my weight, food, restricting, exercising ect... There is a part of me that doesn't want to go back down that road but then again there is a part of me that doesn't want to let go. I am so confused. Nobody in my family understands and they just get so mad at me. I don't want to go back to therapy either. I just want to disappear and be so skinny. Does anyone understand what I am going through?? I hope so. Thanks for listening,
Chrissy
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Tue, 03-21-2006 - 2:14pm

Hi Chrissy,


I am so sorry for what you are going through.

 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 03-21-2006
Wed, 03-22-2006 - 10:06am
Thank you Diana for replying, your words really do mean a lot. As of right now I have no idea what I am going to do. I just got off the phone with my mom and told her a little bit about having some trouble with my eating disorder, she just gets so worried. I try not to tell her much if you know what I mean. She has been so supportive in the past but she has also been really proud of me for doing so well in the past, she didn't realize that I am having eating issues again. I did admit to her that I just don't have an appetite anymore, it could be because I just recently stopped taking anti-psychotic meds for my major depression. This is just a vicious cycle. I don't feel as depressed as I have been in the past so that's good but my eating disorder is becoming more in control. I don't want to have to go back to therapy and right now my weight is okay; therefore I don't believe I really need to go back to therapy. Is that true? I always thought that I needed therapy if I was underweight or just really depressed. I do know that if I do go back to therapy it needs to be with someone who specializes in ED's. My last therapist was new to the profession and didn't really know much about ED's which is probably why we never really adressed my eating disorder. She basically helped me with my depression since that was more of a problem. Anyway thanks for the support and for the reply. Sorry this is so long, write again soon if you want - take care
Chrissy
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Registered: 09-06-2005
Wed, 03-22-2006 - 11:20am

Hi Chrissy, thanks for writing back,


Here is a link I would recommend to you and your mom, have you ever gone to this site?

 

 

~Diana~