thoughts?
Find a Conversation
| Thu, 03-23-2006 - 6:16pm |
Hi All. I hope everyone is hanging in there and having a good first few days of Spring!
I have an internal struggle that I thought I'd share and try to gather a few opinions about. I joined an ED therapy group and have been to a few meetings so far. While I feel challenged and confronted in new ways, I feel uncomfortable because there's only two of us right now, I am not working individually with either of the 2 group leaders, and I feel too big to be in the group. I also wonder if I really need to take this extra step, but then I wonder if that's the ED mindset in me taking over. I do feel like I've been knocked out of my comfort zone - maybe in a good way, maybe not. I don't know. It's so hard opening up in new ways and to a new group of people. Working with my therapist has become so comfortable and easy and I find being a part of this group to be scary, painful and lonely emotionally as I deal with and process what comes up in the group sessions and how I feel about being part of a group. Is it supposed to be that way? Is it supposed to be uncomfortable? And, I know recovery is hard, but how hard is too hard? I guess I am struggling with whether or not I really want to continue with doing group therapy.

Pages
You're welcome!
My ED group starts up again Thursday. Any experiences or insights from that I will be sure to post.
Pages