Learning to be normal

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Registered: 03-18-2006
Learning to be normal
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Sat, 04-01-2006 - 10:55pm

Hi

I am obsessed with my food and my weight. I want to start eating like a normal person but Im afraid to because everybody loves me and compliments me for being so small and cute. Im only 5 feet tall, I have a very slow metabolism, and Im a commercial print model. I feel alot of pressure to stay very skinny, and I know if i gain any weight people around me would be so happy to see that because they are jelous (I know that sounds weird but its true, its part of the reason i developed and eating disorder) I am begining to enjoy eating real meals, and i think its important I do because i take alot of medication for anti depression and anxiety, I want to be able to enjoy life and have a meal out with my boyfriend and not eat rabbit food without worrying about losing my body and having people dislike me. I have such low self esteem when I gain weight. Any advice?

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 04-02-2006 - 4:23pm
Hi and welcome to the board. The fact that you want to change is a good sign. Eeating disorders are never about the food or your body - those are merely symptoms of something different that's going on and that you are not dealing with on an emotional level. The best way to overcome this is to see a good therapist. In addition, you can work with a nutritionist to help you with a food plan (starting out). Eventually you want to learn to eat when you are hungry and stop when you are full. The reason your metabolism is slow is most likely because you are not giving your body enough food. Our bodies are very efficient and in the absence of food they will slow down to compensate. Equally, once you start nourishing your body adequately your metabolism will go up again.

Love & hugs, Kristina

Love & hugs, Kristina

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Registered: 09-06-2005
Mon, 04-03-2006 - 10:38am

Hi there pbs :)


I don't have anything to add to what Kristina said about getting help, but I did notice something you have going for you, and that is a sense of humor -- noting your "cake" emoticon LOL -- ah you did it before I had a chance!


Please do come back often and post about how you are doing and how you are feeling --


 

 

~Diana~

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Registered: 02-06-2004
Mon, 04-03-2006 - 3:12pm
All I can say is maybe adding exercise as you add food will help keep from gaining too much weight.
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Tue, 04-04-2006 - 9:36pm
thanks for your help :]