Need help!

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Registered: 02-22-2005
Need help!
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Mon, 04-03-2006 - 6:40am

Hello everyone,
I need help really badly. Last summer I lost about 30 pounds and got down to a very low weight for my height. I am about 5'7" and I weighed 120 pounds (I am 25 years old). Now I have gained some back. I would say I weigh around 140-145 now. I still wear a size six, but back when I was really skinny I was a two! Now I can't fit into my size twos anymore and I'm so depressed. Anyway, I have been binging and purging lately. Not everyday, but a couple of days a week. Yesterday was really bad, I did it like 3 times. I'm so scared because I KNOW this is a horrible thing to do to myself, but I can't seem to stop! I'm so depressed about gaining weight, even though I know I'm not overweight. Why am I doing this to myself? I feel so sad right now, and I just want to stop this destructive behavior! I just want to live a normal happy life and not constantly think about my weight! Well, I just needed to vent. Please post any thoughts or inspiration. Thank you.

Texasgirl33

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: texasgirl33
Mon, 04-03-2006 - 5:32pm

Hi Texasgirl33,

Welcome to the board. I am so sorry you are hurting and I can relate to what you are going through. With EDs the food and body are really not the issue although it seems that way. There is an underlying emotional problem that you are avoiding and somehow you have started using your ED to cope. The best way to recover from an ED is to see a good therapist. Ideally you want to see someone who has experience in helping people with EDs. A professional can help you figure out what is really going on and how to stop using ED to deal with life.

Love & hugs, Kristina

Love & hugs, Kristina

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In reply to: texasgirl33
Tue, 04-04-2006 - 11:53am
Don't beat yourself up for not being able to stop. It's a hard thing to do. But the fact that you're here and scared means you want to change. So keep on trying. It will get easier with time.
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Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: texasgirl33
Tue, 04-04-2006 - 7:29pm

Welcome tex!


I too am sorry you are having such a rough time.

 

 

~Diana~

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In reply to: texasgirl33
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 6:25am
Thank you everyone for all your responses, they were very kind and helpful. I'm trying really hard w/ this but yesterday was a bad day. How do I go about finding a good ed therapist? Also, I really struggle w/ talking about my feelings with other people. How can I get past this? Thank you!
Love,
TexasGirl
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Registered: 09-06-2005
In reply to: texasgirl33
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 7:24pm

How do I go about finding a good ed therapist? !


Hi texasgirl,


To find a therapist, you could either ask around or, if you don't know anyone that has an ed, try looking in the phone book for therapists and centres where there are several therapists.

 

 

~Diana~